the wheels just keep on turning, the drummer begins to drum, i don't know which way i'm going

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so somehow i've dipped into a depression recently, i think it's from all the questions surronding the future and also, officially moving in w/ my sister this past sunday. i know i've been looking forward to this for a long time now, but it's still a big leap that i am no longer living w/ my mom, it's really jarring. ever since i graduated, i've been in a state of constant change, most of them being rather large decisions/changes clumped together. and now just recently i started to question if i still wanted to major in horticulture and if i could actually survive on my own w/ the amount i get paid at target. and i think today the depression just got a little deeper b/c it's now another valentine's day w/ no valentine.
but i have resolved quite a few of these things, i've decided that i'm not going to make any life changing decisions until i'm out of this depressed state for a little bit. and i'm going to work my hardest to make my room at sister's place as homey as possible, so that i feel comfortable in my surrondings again.
o, on another note...i'm feeling a little more cheery b/c while i was at savons today i encountered my old french teacher, madame mcclung. i always considered her to be one of my favorite teachers and she's still as nice as ever.
but i'll be fine, i'll recover from this (i would consider myself pretty resilent). but until next time... i love you all. happy valentine's day! -Kevin