(no subject)
the worst feeling is liking sumone u will never have...and you know u wont ever have them...
this has been the shittiest weekend i have ever had...i have never experienced sumthing any scarier then this..
having this stupid vision of yesterday morning running through my head over in over is driving me insane..sittign and watching my best friend have a ceisure and not be able to breathe was the worst thign ever..all i kept sayign over and over was god please god please god please and mom please keep fighting u cant leave me you are my best friend in the world and i cant live wihtout you...and i really cant live wihtout you...you mean so much to me....i shouldnt be going through this im only 15 i cant handle it...i cant stop crying...if i loose her i dont know what im going to do
everything is going downhill and i have noone here to hold me up...yes my friends are here but they cant really help me cuz they dont know what im going through...they are always speechless...they dont know what to say...if it was any of my other friends having this done to them they would have their boyfriends there for them at least...i have noone to care about me like that and i want it so bad..i want sumone to hold me and have me know everyhtign will be ok..but i dont and i want to much
dont leave me a comment cuz i dont want sympathy...i just want to say how i feel
this has been the shittiest weekend i have ever had...i have never experienced sumthing any scarier then this..
having this stupid vision of yesterday morning running through my head over in over is driving me insane..sittign and watching my best friend have a ceisure and not be able to breathe was the worst thign ever..all i kept sayign over and over was god please god please god please and mom please keep fighting u cant leave me you are my best friend in the world and i cant live wihtout you...and i really cant live wihtout you...you mean so much to me....i shouldnt be going through this im only 15 i cant handle it...i cant stop crying...if i loose her i dont know what im going to do
everything is going downhill and i have noone here to hold me up...yes my friends are here but they cant really help me cuz they dont know what im going through...they are always speechless...they dont know what to say...if it was any of my other friends having this done to them they would have their boyfriends there for them at least...i have noone to care about me like that and i want it so bad..i want sumone to hold me and have me know everyhtign will be ok..but i dont and i want to much
dont leave me a comment cuz i dont want sympathy...i just want to say how i feel