Oh, this shitty life...
"Tree Hill's just a place somewhere in the world
maybe it's lot like your world
maybe it's nothing like it
but if you look closer, you might see someone like you,
someone trying to find their way,
someone trying to find their place,
someone trying to find theirself...
sometimes it's easy to fell like anyone in the world who's struggling,
who's frustrated or insatisfied and barely getting by.
but that feeling's alive.
and if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day,
someone or something will find you and make it all ok.
because we all need a little help sometimes.
someone to help us hear the music in the world,
to remind us that it won't always be this way,
that someone's out there and that someone will find you;"
There are certain times when Lucas decides to write beautiful things, that I realize I love him. In general I don't like him at all. He's such a pig. Toying with other people's feelings... Sometimes I do feel like Peyton. Lost, lonely, complicated... alone. Sometimes I feel like Brooke, but mostly, I feel like Mouth. The guys who girls just want to be friends with. Because that's all I ever got throughout these years. More and more male friends. I'm starting to get sick and tired of it... or used to be sick and tired. Still don't know. Maybe I just got used to it... I really don't know.
But watching the last episode of OTH this morning, I felt a lot like Peyton. When Nathan says to her that she was different because she cared. That even when he treated like shit, she stayed with him... just because she cared about him. And yeah, that's me... I care.
Maybe my ex-best friend could see that... maybe things could go back to where they used to be. Maybe I could mean at least for once when I say "I really don't give a shit about her anymore. We're done with this stupid friendship!". Or maybe... I could care less...
Anywho... I've said too much.... and obviously no one's gonna read this.