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the sky has been so blue lately, colors seem brighter and i've been so happy that i actually feel lighter, if that makes any sense. we sit on our porch and trace the outlines of the trees with our fingers and climb up that hill that looks like a mountain and sit on the windy steps when the sky is so black to watch over our tiny city and everything seemed like a movie that we were quietly watching from the back corner.
there was a sea of people in our house last night for his birthday party. and i sat and talked with old friends trying to figure out what direction things were flowing. we realized that there was no pattern and things started fading into blurs so i had to get up. and then i heard noise in the basement so i followed it and found 3 kids banging on our dryer, a piece of wood and the furnace making this random beat, but it sounded really good. we made music for awhile and i met some new friends. they talked about how they admired my boy because of the music he put on and then we became closer with everything we have in common. she told me that i was beautiful in a natural kate hudson way and then was embarassed for being so honest. i admire people like her, and her friend and her boyfriend. they seemed real and it made us feel welcome. our house was filled with random people but the laughter seemed real and the smiles didn't fade throughout the whole night. and at the end of the night we poured our hearts out and we were all in love.
he and i were driving home a few nights ago, and the air was crisp blowing throughout the car and the music that was playing seemed to flow with the wind in a perfect movement and i turned to look at him and i saw this beautiful silhouette of a boy with a tiny animal asleep in his lap. he had one hand on the wheel and one hand carefully putting the kitten to sleep. and then he turned and smiled and i remembered that book where the boy explains how he felt infinate and i knew what he felt at that moment only i couldn't put it into words without explaining every detail in his face when he looks at me and the way i feel everytime my eyes meet his.
now im sitting at home drinking coffee with my mother and she is telling me and telling me to move back, to please come home and i tell her that we're both just growing up. and that everything will be okay.
there was a sea of people in our house last night for his birthday party. and i sat and talked with old friends trying to figure out what direction things were flowing. we realized that there was no pattern and things started fading into blurs so i had to get up. and then i heard noise in the basement so i followed it and found 3 kids banging on our dryer, a piece of wood and the furnace making this random beat, but it sounded really good. we made music for awhile and i met some new friends. they talked about how they admired my boy because of the music he put on and then we became closer with everything we have in common. she told me that i was beautiful in a natural kate hudson way and then was embarassed for being so honest. i admire people like her, and her friend and her boyfriend. they seemed real and it made us feel welcome. our house was filled with random people but the laughter seemed real and the smiles didn't fade throughout the whole night. and at the end of the night we poured our hearts out and we were all in love.
he and i were driving home a few nights ago, and the air was crisp blowing throughout the car and the music that was playing seemed to flow with the wind in a perfect movement and i turned to look at him and i saw this beautiful silhouette of a boy with a tiny animal asleep in his lap. he had one hand on the wheel and one hand carefully putting the kitten to sleep. and then he turned and smiled and i remembered that book where the boy explains how he felt infinate and i knew what he felt at that moment only i couldn't put it into words without explaining every detail in his face when he looks at me and the way i feel everytime my eyes meet his.
now im sitting at home drinking coffee with my mother and she is telling me and telling me to move back, to please come home and i tell her that we're both just growing up. and that everything will be okay.