A long over due explanantion
Of life and love lost. As most of you know, I moved to Texas 2 1/2 years ago to be closer to Joy and it was wonderful. That was until the economy tanked in 2008. That cause me to be laid off in January of 2009, along with about 24 others. No big deal at the time but as time progressed and the prospect of finding a new job became more and more harder because nobody hiring, things between us got worse. It didn't help that I lost my car three weeks after losing my job, at a point when I couldn't pay to get it out of the tow yard. They hadn't towed it away less then 12 hours and they wanted $186. Shit, the car wasn't even worth that much. But we got over it. And we made it work. Then at one point she wanted to buy me a new used car. Thankfully I said no to that because I think ahead. Dodge a hell of a bullet with that one. Anyway, by the time Halloween rolled around, I was still jobless, had no car, and things were not going well between us because of all that. All of this was made worse by Joy's son constantly getting in trouble last year and her and I not seeing eye to eye on how to discipline him. She was just to soft on him. He's 15 and sees he can get away with murder because she won't follow through with the discipline. That drove a spike through us eventually to the point where I would just say don't ask me what I think you should do because it's just going to start a fight. Don't get me wrong, I love that kid like he is my own but I refuse to see him not be punish for something he knows to be wrong. Anyway, let's get pass that. Sometime between Halloween and Thanksgiving we called it quits. We're still friends and always will be but we will never be able to get back together. Made even more so when I learned she's seeing some guy that knows some of my friends from California. For all I know he knows me, but to be honest I don't know or remember him. Probably a good thing. So she tells me about this just after Thanksgiving. Then asks mew if I'm upset. Well, I really wasn't because at this time all I really care is that she's happy. Now I begin thinking about moving back to Washington. Because at least there I have places to stay when I become homeless, because let's face it at this rate it's looking like I will be before February. So I called here yesterday and told her my decision and she gets upset and starts blaming herself. At that point I have to explain to her that it isn't her fault and will never be her fault. So I'm moving back home to family that will help me get back on my feet and keep me from becoming homeless. Joy and I are going to see one another one last time on the day I leave. And I'm going to be seeing my great nieces and nephews again, and some for the first time. So it was a good run but looks like it just wasn't meant to be. I have no regrets and if I had to do it all again I would in a heart beat and wouldn't even think twice about it.