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ok. so usually when i update my journal i just talk about things ive done over the past few days. this is going to be a little different. ill probably get some shit for writing this but oh well im doing it anyways.
shes the most important thing ive ever had in my life. i mean that too. ive never felt anywhere near as close as i do with her. i love her so much. yea ive been with other girls and ive said that to them before and i regret it because i never even knew what it meant. i though i did but now that i have her i know what it feels like. it seems like no matter what happens shes always gonna be there for me even when she doesnt have to be. and yes ive done stupid things that couldve easily ruined our relationship but she stuck with me through it all. its also hard because of the distance between us. i mean its not really really far but far enough so we cant see each other everyday like i wish we could. i feel so good when im with her like nothing else matters at all. over the last few days things havent been going so well but now its getting better and it only made me realize how much i really care for her. i noticed that when im fighting with her, everything else seems so much worse but its only cuz im thinking about her leaving me or something. and i know i get jealous alot and mad about stupid things but im trying to change and deal with stuff in a better way. i just wanted to take some time out and write this to let her know how much she means to me and i might not act like it sometimes but she really is the best thing ive ever had.
funny thing is shes never going to even read this :/
shes the most important thing ive ever had in my life. i mean that too. ive never felt anywhere near as close as i do with her. i love her so much. yea ive been with other girls and ive said that to them before and i regret it because i never even knew what it meant. i though i did but now that i have her i know what it feels like. it seems like no matter what happens shes always gonna be there for me even when she doesnt have to be. and yes ive done stupid things that couldve easily ruined our relationship but she stuck with me through it all. its also hard because of the distance between us. i mean its not really really far but far enough so we cant see each other everyday like i wish we could. i feel so good when im with her like nothing else matters at all. over the last few days things havent been going so well but now its getting better and it only made me realize how much i really care for her. i noticed that when im fighting with her, everything else seems so much worse but its only cuz im thinking about her leaving me or something. and i know i get jealous alot and mad about stupid things but im trying to change and deal with stuff in a better way. i just wanted to take some time out and write this to let her know how much she means to me and i might not act like it sometimes but she really is the best thing ive ever had.
funny thing is shes never going to even read this :/