Heavy Stuff
I had already been in a stage of re-evaluating my life, trying to figure out what's working, what's not and why, how to perpetuate what is and how to fix what's not. I got some information a couple of days ago that redoubled my introspection, made re-evaluating a much more urgent and important thing than it was. The information is something comparatively minor, and so distant from my current life. How could it have so big an impact? Will I still feel the same about the things on my mind two weeks from now, or am I making mountains out of molehills for some unknown reason? How much change am I realistically able to make in my life? ... Right now it feels like the only way to get any sort of handle on this is to step as far back as possible, to take a short break in someplace that isn't currently home, where none of my daily stuff is right there at hand. We tend see things more clearly from a distance, and it seems deeply urgent that I see things clearly as soon as possible.