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so much has been going on in my life as of late. it gets overwhelming, and as much as i'd like to say fuck it i don't.
first and foremost, my brother evan just went into rehab for his ongoing drug addiction and abuse. he's been fighting addiction to drugs in some form since he was fourteen, and at 21 i'm glad he's finally decided to come clean. it was made apparent around christmas that my brother has been on oxycotton for quite some time, and we late found out that he'd been mixing it with an anti-seizure drug which when quit cold turkey can cause the heart to fail thus causing death. shit is a big deal. i was the only one that cared enough to talk to my brother about it (my dad didn't say shit because he's a socially acceptable addict), and i talked to my mom about it too which is ultimately what saved his life. in light of these recent events, i've decided to go completely drug free again. a few of you may think it's silly and meaningless but i don't care. it's something i've been contemplating for a little while and this just puts me up to it. i'd like to set the most positive example possible for my brother, who has told me that once he returns from the 28 day in-hospital rehab program he's going straight edge. i'm glad. it also feels good to be able to say that i'm drug free again. weed blows.
second, i'm actually getting things done with my life. not only do i start at aveda hair institute on the 18th and will i be transfering to the dass at lenox, but i'm actually on my way out the door for a meeting at an apartment chrisKTR and i are looking into. our dads will be there with us so hopefully we'll get as much done as possible (like sign a motherfuckin lease). it feels so good to know that things are happening with my life and that i'm not sitting with my thumb up my ass like so many others did (or are doing) and like i was scared i'd eventually be doing. once i'm in school, i'm committing almost fully to it which means band stuff is lower priority. it's a bummer, but honestly i want this more and maybe once i get out of school i'll miss band life and i'll be excited enough about it to commit.
downfall is the shit.
first and foremost, my brother evan just went into rehab for his ongoing drug addiction and abuse. he's been fighting addiction to drugs in some form since he was fourteen, and at 21 i'm glad he's finally decided to come clean. it was made apparent around christmas that my brother has been on oxycotton for quite some time, and we late found out that he'd been mixing it with an anti-seizure drug which when quit cold turkey can cause the heart to fail thus causing death. shit is a big deal. i was the only one that cared enough to talk to my brother about it (my dad didn't say shit because he's a socially acceptable addict), and i talked to my mom about it too which is ultimately what saved his life. in light of these recent events, i've decided to go completely drug free again. a few of you may think it's silly and meaningless but i don't care. it's something i've been contemplating for a little while and this just puts me up to it. i'd like to set the most positive example possible for my brother, who has told me that once he returns from the 28 day in-hospital rehab program he's going straight edge. i'm glad. it also feels good to be able to say that i'm drug free again. weed blows.
second, i'm actually getting things done with my life. not only do i start at aveda hair institute on the 18th and will i be transfering to the dass at lenox, but i'm actually on my way out the door for a meeting at an apartment chrisKTR and i are looking into. our dads will be there with us so hopefully we'll get as much done as possible (like sign a motherfuckin lease). it feels so good to know that things are happening with my life and that i'm not sitting with my thumb up my ass like so many others did (or are doing) and like i was scared i'd eventually be doing. once i'm in school, i'm committing almost fully to it which means band stuff is lower priority. it's a bummer, but honestly i want this more and maybe once i get out of school i'll miss band life and i'll be excited enough about it to commit.
downfall is the shit.