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it's noon on monday in may and i'm tired. i just got in from daytona early this morning and even though i slept in the car (as i did on the way there too), i still can't bring myself to fully wake up. even though the beach was nice and it felt good to see a few faces, this weekend has taken its toll on me. between fighting, shitheads, and florida, i now know that there is no hope for mankind. why would someone go out in search of a fight? and why would someone be surprised when the other party actually fights back? the whole situation was fucked up and i'm sorry that nathan (lane) was arrested. it just so happens that the same night some shit went down here at home too. when did everyone become such jock meatheads? it's not much different than drunken college kids walking the strip picking fights with people, it may be even worse. and let's not forget jessica. my good friend jessica from daytona has been through some shit in the last year and lost ALL of her daytona friends. i visited her at her work and she said she wanted to stop by the show to see me and colin. within the first half an hour she was there she was called a druggie by two cars driving by and given countless dirty looks AND colin tells me that when i wasn't around someone threw something at her. this is not an uncommon occurance. every time she tries to go to a hardcore show kids throw shit at her and yell druggie at her. all of this because of what, a girl decided to live her life in a manor that others don't see fit? who the fuck cares. your life is your life and why business is it of other little nosey shits how you live your own life. godddammit. seriously the last few months have made me realize how over hardcore kids i am. still my friends? yes. it doesn't matter. i'm not trying to preach here like a few others do and sooo many kids dread (god forbid someone voice their opinions on a matter) but something has got to change. maybe it's me, maybe it's not, maybe it's the world. i don't know but this is how i feel.