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i hate skool.
i hate my fucking anxiety attacks.
i hate being so depressed all the time.
i hate the feeling that no one cares about me.
i hate the fact that i'm such an asshole to the person i care the most about.
i hate that all i do anymore is watch tv and get on the computer and eat.
i hate that i suck at skating.
i hate the fact that i love music, but i'm not in a good band that'll go anywhere.
i hate that i have no self-esteem.
i hate that i'll be 17 in 15 days, i'm almost an adult.
i hate that i don't know what i want to do when i grow up.
i hate my family has no money for me to go to college.
i hate that i don't have a car, and i'm almost 17.
i hate that caitlin's parents dont like me.
i hate that me and caitlin get in fights alot.
i hate the fact that i can be so damn emo sometimes, like now.
i hate me, pretty much.
despite all of this, the only thing i believe in and live for, is my love for caitlin.
shes really the only reason i go to skool anymore.
i love caitlin so incredibly much.
and that's it.
i hate my fucking anxiety attacks.
i hate being so depressed all the time.
i hate the feeling that no one cares about me.
i hate the fact that i'm such an asshole to the person i care the most about.
i hate that all i do anymore is watch tv and get on the computer and eat.
i hate that i suck at skating.
i hate the fact that i love music, but i'm not in a good band that'll go anywhere.
i hate that i have no self-esteem.
i hate that i'll be 17 in 15 days, i'm almost an adult.
i hate that i don't know what i want to do when i grow up.
i hate my family has no money for me to go to college.
i hate that i don't have a car, and i'm almost 17.
i hate that caitlin's parents dont like me.
i hate that me and caitlin get in fights alot.
i hate the fact that i can be so damn emo sometimes, like now.
i hate me, pretty much.
despite all of this, the only thing i believe in and live for, is my love for caitlin.
shes really the only reason i go to skool anymore.
i love caitlin so incredibly much.
and that's it.