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so, i've decided. i'm going to start cleaning up my life.
i'm really tired of being so unhappy all the fucking time.
i'm going to dye my hair to straight black, and start looking for a job.
my family has no money, and i'm tired of giving caitlin a third class boyfriend, when i can be so much better.
ah, caitlin. she's so beautiful. i really wish i could be the best boyfriend i can be.
i consider myself kind of mature, but i'm really going to start growing up. i'm almost 17 god dammit. i should feel like i'm older than 14.
i wish i could do more nice things for caitlin. instead of having her buy my movie tickets and stuff. i should buy her nice little things once and awhile to show her how much i love her.
i think about her every second of my day, and i'm not even kidding. i feel like i'm home with her. it kind of sucks that she has band, because i have to work my schedule around when she doesn't have practice. this break should be good, because i'll take her to dinner for christmas and stuff. that'll be nice. i wish i knew what to get her for christmas though. i'm going to really rack my brain.
well, i hope my life starts getting better. maybe i'll stop having so many anxiety attacks, i hate those.
i love caitlin so incredibly much. it's really insane how much i love her. i hope we can hang out soon.
<3
i'm really tired of being so unhappy all the fucking time.
i'm going to dye my hair to straight black, and start looking for a job.
my family has no money, and i'm tired of giving caitlin a third class boyfriend, when i can be so much better.
ah, caitlin. she's so beautiful. i really wish i could be the best boyfriend i can be.
i consider myself kind of mature, but i'm really going to start growing up. i'm almost 17 god dammit. i should feel like i'm older than 14.
i wish i could do more nice things for caitlin. instead of having her buy my movie tickets and stuff. i should buy her nice little things once and awhile to show her how much i love her.
i think about her every second of my day, and i'm not even kidding. i feel like i'm home with her. it kind of sucks that she has band, because i have to work my schedule around when she doesn't have practice. this break should be good, because i'll take her to dinner for christmas and stuff. that'll be nice. i wish i knew what to get her for christmas though. i'm going to really rack my brain.
well, i hope my life starts getting better. maybe i'll stop having so many anxiety attacks, i hate those.
i love caitlin so incredibly much. it's really insane how much i love her. i hope we can hang out soon.
<3