I'm a Failure
Well, the company got back to me. Gave me some lovely feedback before telling me that I didn't get the job.
"Your presentation was superb! I really enjoyed listening to it and it was thorough and detailed and you held yourself really well. The shop you spent time in gave you amazingly high feedback. In the interviews we really liked you and in the group work you were perhaps a little TOO assertive, but otherwise it was great!"
"Wow, thank you very much!"
This is where I got my hopes up.
"But I'm afraid we have chosen not to offer you the Graduate Placement this time...we don't feel you had as much drive as the other candidates."
"Oh..."
"We would like to offer you your old job back however, you'd come back on the same pay and your further training would be fast-tracked so you would grow faster within the company and maybe within a few years we'll see you as a Manager!"
I was shocked. I mean, they gave me feedback before and it was all positive. The feedback here was all positive. But I'm still not good enough?
What the fuck is wrong with me?
Likelihood is I'll take that job and keep looking for something else because I'm incredibly pissed at that company. I mean, I may not have been good enough, that's fine. Although, and this isn't arrogance, I think I was the best out of the candidates. Still, what has upset me is the fact that they got my hopes up so high at every stage.
Anyway, I fucked up, that's over and now it's too late to apply for any other graduate programmes so I'll be grabbing the first paid work that I can find I think.
"Your presentation was superb! I really enjoyed listening to it and it was thorough and detailed and you held yourself really well. The shop you spent time in gave you amazingly high feedback. In the interviews we really liked you and in the group work you were perhaps a little TOO assertive, but otherwise it was great!"
"Wow, thank you very much!"
This is where I got my hopes up.
"But I'm afraid we have chosen not to offer you the Graduate Placement this time...we don't feel you had as much drive as the other candidates."
"Oh..."
"We would like to offer you your old job back however, you'd come back on the same pay and your further training would be fast-tracked so you would grow faster within the company and maybe within a few years we'll see you as a Manager!"
I was shocked. I mean, they gave me feedback before and it was all positive. The feedback here was all positive. But I'm still not good enough?
What the fuck is wrong with me?
Likelihood is I'll take that job and keep looking for something else because I'm incredibly pissed at that company. I mean, I may not have been good enough, that's fine. Although, and this isn't arrogance, I think I was the best out of the candidates. Still, what has upset me is the fact that they got my hopes up so high at every stage.
Anyway, I fucked up, that's over and now it's too late to apply for any other graduate programmes so I'll be grabbing the first paid work that I can find I think.