I wanna Clean my Heart
Quote of the day- "Finger on the trigger for the years to come"- Sade
The past few years, lifes gotten real ill, Like Jadakiss says, "It's kindof hard for the god to laugh through the tears." I can relate kiss. Everyday is a struggle with my mother. No matter what, it comes and goes. You could consider it real life karma. The days go by slower and slower and my father looks at me and thinks, I'm deserting him, it's hurting him? He has a good way of showing his pain. The yelling, the fussing and broken promises. They all add up like the U.S. deficit. I thought I deserved better. You'd build me up to let me down, constantly having me spinning around. Confusion. Frustration. Patience. The day came and, I looked in his eyes, I smiled, but he looked so foreign to me. Not the same man I grew up to love. The same man I would die for. Have you ever seen the Notebook. I felt like Allie looking at Noah, wondering why is this man touching me. A strong statement, but still a hundred and two percent true. What had changed? The expression was clearly all over my face, like the scar of age. The war is still raging inside of me, I still feel the chills; As I reveal my shame to you, I wear it like a Tattoo. I love my daddy, but I never tell him, and how I love my mom. No matter how you look at it, when you get right down to it, I should be in the prime of my life, however I'm still going through changes, Living in confusion........
The past few years, lifes gotten real ill, Like Jadakiss says, "It's kindof hard for the god to laugh through the tears." I can relate kiss. Everyday is a struggle with my mother. No matter what, it comes and goes. You could consider it real life karma. The days go by slower and slower and my father looks at me and thinks, I'm deserting him, it's hurting him? He has a good way of showing his pain. The yelling, the fussing and broken promises. They all add up like the U.S. deficit. I thought I deserved better. You'd build me up to let me down, constantly having me spinning around. Confusion. Frustration. Patience. The day came and, I looked in his eyes, I smiled, but he looked so foreign to me. Not the same man I grew up to love. The same man I would die for. Have you ever seen the Notebook. I felt like Allie looking at Noah, wondering why is this man touching me. A strong statement, but still a hundred and two percent true. What had changed? The expression was clearly all over my face, like the scar of age. The war is still raging inside of me, I still feel the chills; As I reveal my shame to you, I wear it like a Tattoo. I love my daddy, but I never tell him, and how I love my mom. No matter how you look at it, when you get right down to it, I should be in the prime of my life, however I'm still going through changes, Living in confusion........