Apology
Quote of the Day- "Get an Edge up"- Krad
All I wanted was for her to like me. I didn't care how I acquired her love. As long as I could call it my own. I knew you held the ultimate key and if I got on your good graces, the transition period would be remarkablely easy. I gained your love. I became the person you Loved to hate. I was torn between two vicious lions, each tugging on my limbs, vying for me to join their camp, to join their corner. It was a big war of attrition, with me being in the middle. I knew this whole situation would blow up in face. It hurt me everyday to watch you guys distance yourselves from each other. Looking on from the outside, all I could do was smile each of you guys faces, but on the inside a rose was dying inside of me. I really felt your pain. I knew how it felt for someone to just let you go so fast without prior warning. Just leave you out in the cold, "Lost and all alone with no one to trust". I've been there before. I wanted to return the favor. I wanted to be there for you, like you were for me. You didn't abandon me. You sheltered me. During those past three weeks, we were the same. We were brothers. There were things between us that no one could understand. But we knew. I gained your approval. You were pure and innocent. I need you ok. I fucked up by betraying your trust. I never thought it would lead to this. I'm in the same position I was three weeks ago, when this all started, on the outside looking in, with a rose dying not only on the inside but on the outside as well. I was an emotional wreck last night. I only have myself to blame. I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me. If I don't speak to you again, Goodbye Beloved One. This is my apology.
All I wanted was for her to like me. I didn't care how I acquired her love. As long as I could call it my own. I knew you held the ultimate key and if I got on your good graces, the transition period would be remarkablely easy. I gained your love. I became the person you Loved to hate. I was torn between two vicious lions, each tugging on my limbs, vying for me to join their camp, to join their corner. It was a big war of attrition, with me being in the middle. I knew this whole situation would blow up in face. It hurt me everyday to watch you guys distance yourselves from each other. Looking on from the outside, all I could do was smile each of you guys faces, but on the inside a rose was dying inside of me. I really felt your pain. I knew how it felt for someone to just let you go so fast without prior warning. Just leave you out in the cold, "Lost and all alone with no one to trust". I've been there before. I wanted to return the favor. I wanted to be there for you, like you were for me. You didn't abandon me. You sheltered me. During those past three weeks, we were the same. We were brothers. There were things between us that no one could understand. But we knew. I gained your approval. You were pure and innocent. I need you ok. I fucked up by betraying your trust. I never thought it would lead to this. I'm in the same position I was three weeks ago, when this all started, on the outside looking in, with a rose dying not only on the inside but on the outside as well. I was an emotional wreck last night. I only have myself to blame. I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me. If I don't speak to you again, Goodbye Beloved One. This is my apology.