UPDATE!!!
OK..... so ya im not going to names threw any of this but i want to share with everyone what has been happening in my life the past few months.... well here is to start something out.... few months back a few friends of mine were going threw some rough times and they fought and got back together but fought as soon as they got back together and you could tell from that point on that they just were'nt meant to be together..... well one of them has moved on and the other is still trying even though there will be no success in there attempt seeing how they handle the situation the same everytime and it gets them no where.... ok so that was some of the stuff that happend with other people in my life.... this is something that has been happening to me.... awhile back i liked someone alot and i tried and trieddd to find away so that i could be with them.... it just well i guess there was nothing there..... well at least i think ha.... but anywho i found out someone who had liked me that i had known for sometime and well i asked her out and then we started going out... well threw this i lost the friend that i had loved and trusted the most because of something i did.... thats another long story so i'll just skip a bit ahead.... alright lets see well the person i was going out with i ended up breaking up with because of issues i could not deal with.... so i started just hanging out with friends pretty much every night and just living it out at my apartment with my roooomate... well the friend that i lost earlier well they came back and i have never been happier.... probley one of the coolest people i have ever hung out with... well when i can haha... but there leaving for the summer now... which well, really really upsets me... like alot.... its crazy and i can't get over it but i cant do anything about it so thats all on that situation.... and now back to the two people i was talking about earlier.... well one of them found someone else who makes them super happy now and well im glad because their happy again.... but.... the other is still attached and not knowing what to do.... in all of this i lost that friend..... and i still am not sure what i did to lose there friendship.... but after i found out things they had said about me but not to my face really upset me... they later sent me a message saying im willing to be friends with you but it'll never be the same and trust me i will never put any trust in you again... well why put up with that then... i always try to help that person but seems like it always ends up with them disliking me and me hurting them.... why would i want to continue to be your friend if i hurt you... i would be a friend to just not be there anymore so i stop hurting you... and i hope it's helping you... i hope you dont get hurt as much anymore cuz trust me i felt like shit everytime it happend.... and well thats pretty much up to the point now.... and yes new chapters will emerge in all of this and well ill be back updating ya... just trying to get this stuff out.... oh and ya theres something i wish i could do but i cant... im not sure exactly what to do... its probley the best to do nothing and just live on i guess ahha... ah ok everyone that is my storie and thank you very much...
Later one dudes
Later one dudes