Change
Things Change, People Change.
Ive realized within the last month of my life that the perfect life that appears to be right in front of you can change in an instant. Right in front of my eyes I lost eveyrthing that meant the world to me, for one reason or the next. ALl of a sudden college isnt just something Id been working towards anymore, its here, and its kicking my ass. I dont know where i want to go, i dont know wat i want to do, hell i dont even know if i wanna make it to the next day anymore...in the dark ive always been able to find the light, one way or another, and many people have always admired me for that quality, but now i feel as if there is no more light, that i used it up or my time for being optimistic is over. I have an emptiness that i cant describe, and it grows more and more as each day goes on. Ive always been able to make others happy, which makes me happy, but wat do i do when i cant even pick myself up off the ground. Ive fallen times before but ive been able to get right back up to my feet. People are all moving on, even ones that i consider to be closest to me, and i feel like im just stuck in time, in an infiite pause. Knowing that *you* can get back to your feet makes me happy because its the best thing for you, I wish the best to you and all that you do, you will go far. I dont even know wat im talking about right now, alls i want to know is if evyrehting will be ok, if I myself will get back up, and when the hell is that gunna happen, cuz im falling apart...
Life is all a learning experience, a lesson of some sort, but just remember in the end...
you just die anyway
Ive realized within the last month of my life that the perfect life that appears to be right in front of you can change in an instant. Right in front of my eyes I lost eveyrthing that meant the world to me, for one reason or the next. ALl of a sudden college isnt just something Id been working towards anymore, its here, and its kicking my ass. I dont know where i want to go, i dont know wat i want to do, hell i dont even know if i wanna make it to the next day anymore...in the dark ive always been able to find the light, one way or another, and many people have always admired me for that quality, but now i feel as if there is no more light, that i used it up or my time for being optimistic is over. I have an emptiness that i cant describe, and it grows more and more as each day goes on. Ive always been able to make others happy, which makes me happy, but wat do i do when i cant even pick myself up off the ground. Ive fallen times before but ive been able to get right back up to my feet. People are all moving on, even ones that i consider to be closest to me, and i feel like im just stuck in time, in an infiite pause. Knowing that *you* can get back to your feet makes me happy because its the best thing for you, I wish the best to you and all that you do, you will go far. I dont even know wat im talking about right now, alls i want to know is if evyrehting will be ok, if I myself will get back up, and when the hell is that gunna happen, cuz im falling apart...
Life is all a learning experience, a lesson of some sort, but just remember in the end...
you just die anyway