grandma update
i just got off of the phone with my mom and i found out that my grandma officially has altzhimers (and i have no idea how to spell that and am too busy to go look it up). and she told me that it's progressing pretty quickly. my mom even told me that i should call her when i get a chance so that that way she doesn't forget me bec i can't go visit her. that made me so scared. i don't want her to forget me. she has been there my entire life, from the time that she visited me in the hopsital when i was just a few hours old to the mother-daughter brunch last spring (now i'm regretting that fact that i didn't see her much this summer). oh god can she just hold on a little bit longer, i just don't think that i would be able take it if she didn't know me, i would never be albe to see her, or atleast not for that long. that's the reason when i avoid auntie lulu at family gatherings. i can't stand the fact that she barely knows who we are. it would be just too sad, if she did forget. i'll have to give her a call tomorrow. now, i think, is past her bedtime. it's just so scary.