It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does...
I need to whine so dont read this if you dont care. I just need to write it. I dont know how much it will help but oh well.
You lied to me. I asked you if there was anyone you had feelings for. I would not have dated you had I known. I feel horrible for her too and also for myself for believing every word you said to me. So you hate yourself. So I wonder if I was beginning to love you again. How could you have not told me before we dated. How could you just avoid me again. Why do you do this to yourself and the girls who love you. Is it just a game to you. Everything you say about love I agree with, but I dont think you do. You definitely do not practice what you preach. I thought you wanted to make me happy. I thought that you really did care about me. But how could you when you can treat me like this. Dont you get it? Well I certainly dont. Why dont you like me? Whats wrong with me? Why am I not enough? Have I not been understanding of you? Have I not cared? Have I not loved you? Have I not done anything I could for you? I should quit debate.
You wore wrong Jordy. Im not happy anymore. Hes not going to do anything to make it work. Hes going to do everything to ruin it and me and her. I cant even see straight too many tears. I dont know if Im making sense. It just shows you I dont deserve "perfect". If it was in my fate why wouldnt I have it? If it was in my fate he would like me. I dont know what I would do if I didnt have friends right now. At least my friends will always love me right? I need to concentrate on everything but him. I have so many wonderful things but all that matters is him. I wonder if he knew going into this it wouldnt last. I really need friends right now. :'(
"I could get used to this" but yet you push me away.
Why am I so stupid. Why did I go back to him? I thought he was sincere.
I guess I will stop whining. Ive been visited by patheticness. I guess I will write a song. All of the these horrible emotions hes made me feel I will turn into something good. A wonderful song.
so pathetic. so pathetic. so pathetic. so pathetic.
WOW You know what I just thought. 3rd times a charm! I really am crazy! WOW so stupid.
You lied to me. I asked you if there was anyone you had feelings for. I would not have dated you had I known. I feel horrible for her too and also for myself for believing every word you said to me. So you hate yourself. So I wonder if I was beginning to love you again. How could you have not told me before we dated. How could you just avoid me again. Why do you do this to yourself and the girls who love you. Is it just a game to you. Everything you say about love I agree with, but I dont think you do. You definitely do not practice what you preach. I thought you wanted to make me happy. I thought that you really did care about me. But how could you when you can treat me like this. Dont you get it? Well I certainly dont. Why dont you like me? Whats wrong with me? Why am I not enough? Have I not been understanding of you? Have I not cared? Have I not loved you? Have I not done anything I could for you? I should quit debate.
You wore wrong Jordy. Im not happy anymore. Hes not going to do anything to make it work. Hes going to do everything to ruin it and me and her. I cant even see straight too many tears. I dont know if Im making sense. It just shows you I dont deserve "perfect". If it was in my fate why wouldnt I have it? If it was in my fate he would like me. I dont know what I would do if I didnt have friends right now. At least my friends will always love me right? I need to concentrate on everything but him. I have so many wonderful things but all that matters is him. I wonder if he knew going into this it wouldnt last. I really need friends right now. :'(
"I could get used to this" but yet you push me away.
Why am I so stupid. Why did I go back to him? I thought he was sincere.
I guess I will stop whining. Ive been visited by patheticness. I guess I will write a song. All of the these horrible emotions hes made me feel I will turn into something good. A wonderful song.
so pathetic. so pathetic. so pathetic. so pathetic.
WOW You know what I just thought. 3rd times a charm! I really am crazy! WOW so stupid.