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I'm puttnig off going to bed.
I don't know why, I am exhaustd
depleated
usurped of my energy by a long, long day of class, then home for a minute, then work for ten years. And right now. The static sounds humming from appliances around me, the bite of the autumn air nipping my knees from the slider left open to ventalate my unwanted cigarette smoke, the anticipation of another day that I couldn't begin to prepare for. The beer that I was so adamant about not drinking this morning when I woke with an unpleasant buzz, now making my fingers cold as they are wrapped around a bottle.
Smooth and refreshing!
if only...
and tomorrow is the true test, or raher the mrning after
thusday morning will decide my fate
to wake after 3 hours of sleep (after I get off at 2:30 a.m.) and attend school with bright ambition in my eyes
or to wake at 2:30 in the afternoon and rationalize missing another quarter with my crazy work schedule.
I choose the former. I beleive that I can make it through this quarter, insanity and all, as long as I make myself by not accepting excuses from myself and holding myself accountable ( as opposed to circumstance) for misakes.
I think I am going to have to lay low fo a while
I don't know why, I am exhaustd
depleated
usurped of my energy by a long, long day of class, then home for a minute, then work for ten years. And right now. The static sounds humming from appliances around me, the bite of the autumn air nipping my knees from the slider left open to ventalate my unwanted cigarette smoke, the anticipation of another day that I couldn't begin to prepare for. The beer that I was so adamant about not drinking this morning when I woke with an unpleasant buzz, now making my fingers cold as they are wrapped around a bottle.
Smooth and refreshing!
if only...
and tomorrow is the true test, or raher the mrning after
thusday morning will decide my fate
to wake after 3 hours of sleep (after I get off at 2:30 a.m.) and attend school with bright ambition in my eyes
or to wake at 2:30 in the afternoon and rationalize missing another quarter with my crazy work schedule.
I choose the former. I beleive that I can make it through this quarter, insanity and all, as long as I make myself by not accepting excuses from myself and holding myself accountable ( as opposed to circumstance) for misakes.
I think I am going to have to lay low fo a while