ever wished for a simple soloution.......................................
so here's my update.
i lost my job on thursday booohooo, i have now gotten over it, although at the time i was pretty damn upset luckily my good ol mum was around to speak to.
spent friday out job hunting, had a few interviews so fingers x'd that at least one of them will come through. so friday evening, instead of goin out drinking, me and my boy went to the gym, so listening to some madball and throwdown i have decided goes down pretty well whilst doin a work out. and by the end of it although i was tired i felt pretty damn good for it. apart from dirty looking old fattie that was starring at me.
saturday during the dy was pretty good, went out in town with my mum for lunch, had nando's (as she'd never been there i had to take her to nando's for lunch) twas loverly! brought my sweat towels for the gym and some books on film and digital photography, i'm going to do some self teaching at home, on some techniques i didn't get to learn in college. i also got this great nail balm, which tatses foul so looks like i won't be chewing on my fingers anymore! saturday night as per usual was completly boring, so i ended up watching that desperate house wives program to take my mind off of my own failing relationship.
sunday wasn't too bad i ended up going to the pub with my dad and stayed in there pretty much all day, until it was time to go see KSE in the evening, luckily there was a que so the cold air sobered me right up, however i might have enjoyed it more if i was off my face. i missed the only support band i was looking forward too. all that remains weren't too bad, pretty average i thought a few good songs but nothing that stood out. although for the girls, the singer does strip down to the waist so theres something to watch even if the music isn't your thing. twelve tribes were equally as dissapointing, when they hit the stage they showed some promise with a good entrance but then it all just kinda rolled into one, nothing in the performance really sticks in my mind. so KSE as usual i was pretty impressed with, i always enjoy their set, although they did play a few from the new album that i didnt really like. for all the kids that were in the pit, it has to be said you all looked like try hards, ive never seen a poorer kiddy push pit at a gig, you could at least show some enthusiasm and try to dance.
so today, i got up early went to the gym, took my walk home which was freezing after getting all hot in the gym. got home to find andy standing on my door step knocking his loudest. so spent the morning with him, which i have totally missed definatly one of my favourite friends to have jokes with, all is good apart from his cupboard raiding. so i ended up burning him off a few c.ds and had a bath. been reading more of the antony keidis book and it seems to be getting more and more interesting. another unexpected phone call but spoke to david for an hour or so on the phone this afternoon, only know i wonder why it was that we didn't stay friends straight away after we broke up, i guess that was my doing though just out of spite for everything that happened, but now its got to the point that we can be friends again i'm glad, i've missed being able to share things with him, we spent the best part of two years together so i guess we have a lot that ties us together, it never ended the way we thought it would though did it, but it has to be said i have missed it.
the box office was closed last night at the mean fiddler which sucks, why is it that its closed on a sunday?? so i couldn't buy my tickets that i wanted in the end, but i will get them.
so back to my flailing relationship, every now 'n' again it seems to be ticking along okay, and then it just seems like nothing at all, it's kind of like just having a friend, that just happens to never leave your house.
is it just the length of time that we've been together that has made it just kind of fizzle down to this?
or has the relationship just run its course?
it's hard to think of being without him, but in the same sense sometimes being with him makes me so miserable that maybe i would be better to just not have the added baggage.
however now my mums booked us all a skiing holiday which isn't until 7th january 2006, so looks like i will have to look at fixing what ever it is that is going on, its not like we argue though, this puzzles me the most. i seem to be the only one who is unhappy.
this happens from time to time, and it seems to work out for a month or so at a time, and then were back to where we started again.
ever wished for that simple soloution that just never comes??????????
i lost my job on thursday booohooo, i have now gotten over it, although at the time i was pretty damn upset luckily my good ol mum was around to speak to.
spent friday out job hunting, had a few interviews so fingers x'd that at least one of them will come through. so friday evening, instead of goin out drinking, me and my boy went to the gym, so listening to some madball and throwdown i have decided goes down pretty well whilst doin a work out. and by the end of it although i was tired i felt pretty damn good for it. apart from dirty looking old fattie that was starring at me.
saturday during the dy was pretty good, went out in town with my mum for lunch, had nando's (as she'd never been there i had to take her to nando's for lunch) twas loverly! brought my sweat towels for the gym and some books on film and digital photography, i'm going to do some self teaching at home, on some techniques i didn't get to learn in college. i also got this great nail balm, which tatses foul so looks like i won't be chewing on my fingers anymore! saturday night as per usual was completly boring, so i ended up watching that desperate house wives program to take my mind off of my own failing relationship.
sunday wasn't too bad i ended up going to the pub with my dad and stayed in there pretty much all day, until it was time to go see KSE in the evening, luckily there was a que so the cold air sobered me right up, however i might have enjoyed it more if i was off my face. i missed the only support band i was looking forward too. all that remains weren't too bad, pretty average i thought a few good songs but nothing that stood out. although for the girls, the singer does strip down to the waist so theres something to watch even if the music isn't your thing. twelve tribes were equally as dissapointing, when they hit the stage they showed some promise with a good entrance but then it all just kinda rolled into one, nothing in the performance really sticks in my mind. so KSE as usual i was pretty impressed with, i always enjoy their set, although they did play a few from the new album that i didnt really like. for all the kids that were in the pit, it has to be said you all looked like try hards, ive never seen a poorer kiddy push pit at a gig, you could at least show some enthusiasm and try to dance.
so today, i got up early went to the gym, took my walk home which was freezing after getting all hot in the gym. got home to find andy standing on my door step knocking his loudest. so spent the morning with him, which i have totally missed definatly one of my favourite friends to have jokes with, all is good apart from his cupboard raiding. so i ended up burning him off a few c.ds and had a bath. been reading more of the antony keidis book and it seems to be getting more and more interesting. another unexpected phone call but spoke to david for an hour or so on the phone this afternoon, only know i wonder why it was that we didn't stay friends straight away after we broke up, i guess that was my doing though just out of spite for everything that happened, but now its got to the point that we can be friends again i'm glad, i've missed being able to share things with him, we spent the best part of two years together so i guess we have a lot that ties us together, it never ended the way we thought it would though did it, but it has to be said i have missed it.
the box office was closed last night at the mean fiddler which sucks, why is it that its closed on a sunday?? so i couldn't buy my tickets that i wanted in the end, but i will get them.
so back to my flailing relationship, every now 'n' again it seems to be ticking along okay, and then it just seems like nothing at all, it's kind of like just having a friend, that just happens to never leave your house.
is it just the length of time that we've been together that has made it just kind of fizzle down to this?
or has the relationship just run its course?
it's hard to think of being without him, but in the same sense sometimes being with him makes me so miserable that maybe i would be better to just not have the added baggage.
however now my mums booked us all a skiing holiday which isn't until 7th january 2006, so looks like i will have to look at fixing what ever it is that is going on, its not like we argue though, this puzzles me the most. i seem to be the only one who is unhappy.
this happens from time to time, and it seems to work out for a month or so at a time, and then were back to where we started again.
ever wished for that simple soloution that just never comes??????????