i don't even know where to begin
ok, so i guess it's about time to update this thing. it's only been a month since the last time.
babywise things are fine here. i went in to see the nurse tuesday. gave bodily fluids and discussed my medical history. she nearly made me take the gestational diabetes test. i was not happy about that. i know i'm weighing too much right now, but geez, i didn't think it was that much. it doesn't help that i never lost the weight i gained during the first pregnancy. in fact, i gained a few more pounds after the miscarriage and had just lost 2 of those pounds when i found out i was pregnant again. i've now gained those pounds back already. not a good thing. i have to go back to exercising again. the nice weather should help. at least i can go out and walk on my breaks from work.
the ultrasound is on the 8th. makes me nervous just thinking about it. i'm sure everything will be fine. oh heck, of course i'm not sure everything will be fine. in fact, i was having real problems sleeping last week. a couple nights i woke up around 4 and couldn't get back to sleep. i even had some bad dreams. one night the cat woke me up scratching at the door. after i remembered my dream, my first thought was that i'd been watching too much 'law&order.' but really i think it's more like i was channeling my worries into something unreal. in the dream the svu unit was investigating a dead child in a basement. lots of blood. ugh. the waiting isn't helping. i feel like i'm in limbo. only two weeks, i can manage that. i have plenty to do to keep busy in the meantime.
babywise things are fine here. i went in to see the nurse tuesday. gave bodily fluids and discussed my medical history. she nearly made me take the gestational diabetes test. i was not happy about that. i know i'm weighing too much right now, but geez, i didn't think it was that much. it doesn't help that i never lost the weight i gained during the first pregnancy. in fact, i gained a few more pounds after the miscarriage and had just lost 2 of those pounds when i found out i was pregnant again. i've now gained those pounds back already. not a good thing. i have to go back to exercising again. the nice weather should help. at least i can go out and walk on my breaks from work.
the ultrasound is on the 8th. makes me nervous just thinking about it. i'm sure everything will be fine. oh heck, of course i'm not sure everything will be fine. in fact, i was having real problems sleeping last week. a couple nights i woke up around 4 and couldn't get back to sleep. i even had some bad dreams. one night the cat woke me up scratching at the door. after i remembered my dream, my first thought was that i'd been watching too much 'law&order.' but really i think it's more like i was channeling my worries into something unreal. in the dream the svu unit was investigating a dead child in a basement. lots of blood. ugh. the waiting isn't helping. i feel like i'm in limbo. only two weeks, i can manage that. i have plenty to do to keep busy in the meantime.