(no subject)
starting today, I am unloving you
just like you asked me not to
I'm sucking it in, blowing it away, pouring the drink over the railing
I changed my mind
I lost my nerve
I fucking take it back
I'm starting to rewrite our past
recast my future
revamp my vocabulary
I will strip every plan, gesture, look
of significance and consequence
every time you kissed my forehead
and I thought, yes, definitely, I'm positive about you
I will rescript it as a meaningless crush
I can, I will, I am
taking it back
you've given me absolutely no reason to try
and when you said that I don't confide enough
I couldn't call you a hypocrite
you told me explicitly where I stood with you
and your actions spoke volumes on where I didn't
I'm erasing hearts in notebooks
taking pictures out of my wallet
I can't believe I let you so far in
but I fucking take it back
just like you asked me not to
I'm sucking it in, blowing it away, pouring the drink over the railing
I changed my mind
I lost my nerve
I fucking take it back
I'm starting to rewrite our past
recast my future
revamp my vocabulary
I will strip every plan, gesture, look
of significance and consequence
every time you kissed my forehead
and I thought, yes, definitely, I'm positive about you
I will rescript it as a meaningless crush
I can, I will, I am
taking it back
you've given me absolutely no reason to try
and when you said that I don't confide enough
I couldn't call you a hypocrite
you told me explicitly where I stood with you
and your actions spoke volumes on where I didn't
I'm erasing hearts in notebooks
taking pictures out of my wallet
I can't believe I let you so far in
but I fucking take it back