hoh boy, here we go...
well if there is one thing that i can applaud her on, it's her ability to be consistent. i love the fact that i know if her and i are to get in to a fight it is a sure bet it will be plastered online with a fake facade much like a cheap pornagraphy whore with in a matter of hours. with this i begin to question if i am really the more immature one between the two of us as stated in her post. it is not my style to settle things this way but i feel the need to now tell the other half of the story, and for that i apologize.
let's get to it then... as for the spat, i received a call from her this afternoon asking if i could pick her and her sister up when they were finished shopping because they decided to buy a lot more then they wanted to walk home and they knew i was probably home. sure i said, just give me a call when you're finished. a little background story, i had planned to go visit my brother in st. augustine for the weekend and i got a phone call from my cousin shortly after saying that my aunt and uncle was in town and that they would like me to join them for a late lunch before i left. mind you, i still had to finish packing and get ready to go. shortly after i received a second phone call from her saying that they were ready, and i said i'd leave shortly. i finished up and got everything ready, leaving my bags so there would be more room for there stuff so i could get them, drop them off, grab my stuff and get going. i got there when i could which was literally about 20 mins since the phone call, as opposed to the afforementioned and overexaggerated 45 min in her post. as i pull up in front of the place i get a phone call from her saying "Umm.. you took too long, so me and ___ don't need you, we're already walking." in other words meaning: your time means nothing to us. we are walking because you inconvenienced us. we could not wait 20 min for a favor that we asked for, that is entirely way too long. it meant nothing that you stopped what you were doing, and arranged plans around us. we apparently did not buy more than we could carry because we're walking perfectly fine with it.
Yet they wonder why i did not stop when i passed them to pick them up. they wonder why i chose to hang up and move on with the rest of my day. she wonders why i didnt answer my door to someone that was "too good for my effort five min ago" pounding like the police (literally no exaggeration here.)but if you read her post i am a horrible person that only cares about myself and apparantly gas money.... WELL LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING SWEETHEART... THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND YOU, OR YOUR PRINCESS SISTER. IF SOMEONE GOES OUT OF THEIR WAY TO DO YOU A FAVOR, YOU TAKE WHAT YOU CAN GET WHEN YOU CAN GET IT. BECAUSE GUESS WHAT? IT'S A FAVOR. THE TWO OF YOU HAPPEN TO BE TWO OF THE MOST INCONSIDERATE, AND SPOILED PEOPLE I HAVE EVER COME ACROSS. AND I HATE TO SAY THAT MANY PEOPLE AGREE WHETHER EITHER ONE OF YOU REALIZES IT. IT DISGUSTS ME THAT YOU COULD WRITE A POST THAT SOME HOW COMPLETELY MAKES YOU LOOK LIKE A VICTIM, I CAN'T BELEIVE THAT YOU COULD BE SO SELFISH. YOU CONTINUALLY THROW YOURSELF A PITY PARTY AND MAKE IT SEEM LIKE THE WORLD IS OUT TO GET YOU. LET ME LET YOU IN ON A SECRET... IT IS. THE WORLD IS OUT TO EAT EVERYONE OF US UP ALIVE AND IT IS NOBODY'S JOB BUT YOUR OWN TO PROTECT YOURSELF FROM IT. I WILL NO LONGER ALLOW YOU TO MAKE EXCUSES FOR YOURSELF. SURE YOU MAY RARELY ASK ME FOR A RIDE, BUT I ALWAYS GIVE IT TO YOU IF I CAN. THE POINT IS, WHICH THE TWO OF YOU DON'T SEEM TO GET IT IS, THAT YOU BOTH CONTINUALLY CHOOSE NOT TO WORK. YOU CONTINUALLY CHOOSE NOT TO HAVE A CAR, AND INSTEAD OF LIVING WITH THAT CHOICE (because you two could easily get jobs with the amount of spare time you have, and buy a car even if its a piece) YOU INSIST ON DEPENDING ON OTHERS TO COME ON YOUR EVERY BECKON CALL. AND APPARENTLY THERE IS A TIME LIMIT. YOU MENTION COMMON COURTESY... COMMON COURTESY IS THAT YOU DON'T ASK SOMEONE TO GO OUT OF THEIR WAY FOR YOU JUST SO YOU CAN DECIDE THEIR EFFORTS WEREN'T CONVENIENT ENOUGH FOR YOU. YOU TALK OF FREINDSHIP AND HOW I AM TERRIBLE AT IT. YOU NEED TO OPEN YOUR FREAKING EYES AND THINK HARD ABOUT HOW MUCH I REALLY HAVE BEEN THERE FOR YOU. THIS PAST SUMMER WHEN YOU THOUGHT YOU HIT YOUR LOW WHO TOOK YOU IN AND GAVE YOU THEIR FULL ATTENTION, ADVICE, COMFORT AND HOPE, INSTEAD OF THEIR MOM WHEN IT WAS HER BIRTHDAY? YOU TOLD ME HOW TERRIBLE THINGS WERE FOR YOU AT HOME AND THAT YOU COULDN'T LIVE THERE EVER AGAIN, THAT THIS WAS IT. I TOLD YOU WHAT TO DO, HOW TO DO IT, I TAUGHT YOU WHAT IT TAKES TO BE TRULY INDEPENDENT AND YOU COULDN'T EVEN HOLD THE DAMN JOB. YOU HAVE NO CONVICTION IN ANYTHING YOU DO. YOU'VE NEVER TRULY DONE ANYTHING FOR YOURSELF AND IT IS SAD. YOU'VE NEVER LIVED A HARD DAY IN YOUR LIFE. YOU HAVE SO MUCH TO BE GREATFUL FOR AND YOU SPIT ON IT EVERYDAY. YOU AND YOUR SISTER EXPECT THE WORLD TO CATER TO YOU. THE TWO OF YOU HAVE LOST MANY FRIENDS OVER THE YEARS, YET YOU DON'T SEEM TO QUESTION WHY, YOU THINK THERE MUST BE SOMETHING WRONG WITH EVERYONE ELSE IN THE WORLD BUT YOURSELVES. SELFISH. YOU FAIL TO TAKE ANY SORT OF ACCOUNTABILITY FOR YOUR ACTIONS. YOU CRY ABOUT HOW YOU HAVE NO MONEY BUT YOU DON'T MAKE ANY EFFORT ASIDE FROM CALLING YOUR GRANDMA AND MAKING HER FEEL SORRY FOR YOU. DISGUSTING. SURE YOU WORK ON THE BREAKS, BUT WHAT DO YOU DO WITH THAT MONEY? OH WAIT YOU'RE TAKING A LOVELY TRIP TO NEW YORK SOON, WHICH I'M ALMOST WILLING TO BET YOU WILL COERCE YOUR MOM INTO CONTRIBUTING TO THE CAUSE SINCE YOU'RE GOING WITH YOUR SISTER. IT MUST BE NICE TO HAVE ALL THAT FINANCIAL AID TO BLOW ON A TRIP WHEN YOU CAN'T SEEM TO PAY YOUR OWN RENT (or save to buy a car maybe?...hmm...nah, that's crazy...)I CONTINUALLY HOPE THAT ONE DAY, IF NOT THE BOTH OF YOU, THAT YOU ATLEAST START TO GET IT. BUT I'M NOT SURE IT WILL EVER HAPPEN. YOU WANT TO KNOW SOMETHING? GAS MONEY DOES MEAN A LOT TO ME, AND SO DOES MY MONEY, BECAUSE IT'S ACTUALLY MY MONEY, NOT MOMMY AND DADDY'S. AND YOU CAN EVEN ARGUE THAT YOU GIVE ME GAS MONEY...GUESS WHAT? IF YOU HAD A CAR, YOU'D REALIZE THAT 20-30$ DOESN'T COME ANYWHERE CLOSE TO A ROUNDTRIP FROM GAINESVILLE, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU BRING YOUR LIFE HOME WITH YOU AND EVEN MORE BACK UP PLUS THE WEIGHT OF YOU YOURSELF. IT'S CALLED WEAR AND TEAR OF A VEHICLE. BUT DO I THANKYOU FOR IT ANYWAY? I LOVE HOW YOU BRING UP YOUR BOYFRIEND PAYING FOR ME. LET'S CLARIFY THIS, YOU USE ME AS A LIE TO TELL YOUR MOM SO YOU CAN STAY WITH HIM FOR A COUPLE DAYS IN WEST PALM, AND HAVE ME DRIVE WITH THE PROMISE THAT I WILL BE COMPENSATED. WE GO OUT HAVE A DINNER THAT I OFFER TO PAY MY PORTION OF AND HE REFUSES TO LET ME DO SO. WHICH IS VERY GENEROUS AND I THANKED HIM FOR. BUT THEN LATER YOU WANT TO SAY THAT HIS OFFER TO DO THAT MEANS THAT YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE TO HOLD UP TO YOUR END OF THE DEAL? FIRST OF ALL, HIS EXPENSES ARE NOT YOURS, AND ARE COMPLETELY UNRELATED, AND TWO I HAVE ALSO HAD BOYFRIENDS THAT HAVE PAID FOR YOUR MEALS, BUT UNLIKE YOU AND HIM, THEY ARE NOT TACKY ENOUGH TO HOLD IT OVER YOUR HEAD LATER. keep in mind that i'm not writing this in the heat of the moment like you chose to do, i've thought about my words and it's not like i got mad at you today therefore i'm going to rant and rave all over livejournal. these are ideas that i have wanted to convey to you practically our whole lives, but you just don't seem to get it. I LOVE HOW NOW THAT YOUR MAD AT ME YOU DECIDE THAT JOEY IS "UGLY AND STUPID, AND DOESN'T KNOW SHIT ABOUT ANYTHING."(as said in my lovely voicemail.) LET ME ASK YOU, WHAT THE HELL KIND OF INFORMATION ARE YOU BASING THAT OFF OF. HE HAS BEEN NOTHING SHORT OF KIND TO YOU AND ACCEPTING OF YOUR BOYFRIEND, ONE OF TWO OTHER PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD TO DO SO, THE OTHER I RECALL BEING MYSELF. AND YOU SUDDENLY DECIDE THAT ALL OF A SUDDEN HE'S UGLY AND STUPID. WAIT, WAIT, I THOUGHT IT WAS MY JOB TO BE IMMATURE, STOP DOING IT FOR ME SILLY. HOW DARE YOU, HAVE THE AUDACITY TO SAY ONE BAD WORD ABOUT HIM. HE KNOWS MORE ABOUT LIFE THAN YOU COULD EVER HOPE TO LEARN, HE IS KIND AND LOVING TO EVERYONE AND DOES NOT DESERVE SUCH DISRESPECT. HOW YOU COULD SAY HE'S STUPID IS BEYOND ME, HE DOESN'T GO TO YOUR SCHOOL BECAUSE HE HAD NO OTHER OPTIONS, HE GOT INTO EVERY OTHER SCHOOL IN THE STATE OF FLORIDA AND SOME OUT OF STATE, HE JUST REALLY HAS HIS SIGHTS ON UF, UNLIKE SOME. I COULD CARELESS IF YOU AND YOUR SISTER THINK HE'S NOT ATTRACTIVE, BECAUSE THE TWO OF YOU WILL NOT KNOW LOVE LIKE THAT ANYWHERE IN THE NEAR FUTURE. OH AND BREAKING UP EVERY OTHER DAY AND LETTING SOMEONE WHO ISNT YOUR BOYFRIEND FINGERFUCK YOU ARE NOT TYPICAL SIGNS OF IT. (what was really funny about that was how you tried to tell me, and yourself for that matter, that you were proud that you didn't do anything back to him. that it was just him touching you even though you wanted so much more...unbelievable...hope i didn't blow your cover) YET YOU MAKE ME OUT TO BE A WHORE FOR SPENDING MORE TIME WITH MY BOYFRIEND THEN I DO WITH YOU. WOOOOOW. HEAVEN FORBID I STUDY WITH SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY TAKES LIFE SERIOUSLY AND MOTIVATES ME. THAT MUST BE A TERRIBLE IDEA..HMM MAYBE I COULD HAVE STUDIED WITH YOU HAD YOU BOUGHT YOUR BOOKS..HOWD THAT ANTHRO CLASS GO BY THE WAY? OH WAIT YOU DROPPED IT. MUST BE NICE TO ONLY HAVE CLASS TUES AND THURS, SOME BEING ONLINE, DROP ONE, AND STILL NOT WORK. LET'S NOT FORGET THAT YOU PROBABLY WOULDN'T HAVE MADE IT THROUGH THOSE CLASSES WITHOUT YOU HAVING OTHER PEOPLE TAKE YOUR ONLINE TESTS, SUCH AS MYSELF, AND THE NEIGHBORS AND EXBOYFRIENDS YOU FLIRTED WITH BECAUSE YOU KNEW THEY'D DO IT. YOU MUST GET THIS IDEA OF USING PEOPLE FROM YOUR SISTER, SHE'S TERRIFIC AT IT. AS TO WHAT ME AND MY BOYFRIEND DO IS ENTIRELY KNOWN OF YOUR BUSINESS AND SOMETHING YOU DO NOT HAVE MUCH KNOWLEDGE OF, SO I SUGGEST YOU START PARTING WAYS WITH THE IDEA THAT I'M SOME KIND OF SLUT, BECAUSE IN THE END IT'S YOU WITH SHIT ON YOUR FACE. IT'S REALLY SAD THAT THIS HAS TO BE SAID LIKE THIS BUT I'LL PLAY THE GAME YOU WANT TO PLAY. SURE NOW I MUST SEEM LIKE A TERRIBLE FRIEND. AND SOME HOW I KNOW YOU WILL READ THIS AND CONVINCE YOURSELF THAT I'M WRONG, OR STUPID. YOU MIGHT EVEN SHOW YOUR SISTER AND SHE MIGHT CONVINCE YOU BOTH THAT IM UGLY AND A BITCH, WHICH IS THE PATH SHE SEEMS TO TAKE WHEN SHE BURNS THE BRIDGES IN HER LIFE. YOU TWO CAN TRY TO BELIEVE THAT I'M WRONG AND YOU'LL TELL YOUR BOYFRIEND AND YOUR ROOMATE. THAT'S FINE, I EXPECT IT OF YOU, BUT ONE DAY WITH ANY LUCK IT WILL HIT YOU. BECAUSE I HATE TO SAY IT BUT YOU DON'T HAVE MANY FRIENDS LEFT. SURE YOU CAN TAKE ME OFF YOUR TOP EIGHT (which without a doubt i already confirmed you did haha) YOU CAN STOP TALKING TO ME OR WHATEVER WHICH IS FINE BECAUSE RIGHT NOW I'M NOT PUTTING UP WITH IT ANYWAY, AND YOU CAN BELEIVE THAT YOUR ROOMATE YOU'VE KNOWN FOR A YEAR, YOUR BOYFRIENDS EX GIRLFRIEND THAT HE DATED IN BETWEEN YOU, AND HIM ARE THE ONLY PEOPLE YOU NEED. SURE YOU HAVE THE NEIGHBOR BUT HE'S MOVING, AND YOU CAN ALWAYS FLIRT WITH YOUR EX SO HE HANGS OUT WITH YOU AND PAYS FOR YOU THAT'S COOL TOO. CONTINUE TO SLANDER MY NAME ON LIVEJOURNAL SINCE YOU HAVE FEW PEOPLE TO TELL, BUT REMEMBER YOU LOSE CREDIBILITY MORE AND MORE THESE DAYS. I HOPE WHOEVER YOU DECIDE YOU DUB YOUR BEST FRIEND WILL STICK UP FOR YOU WHEN YOU'RE NOT AROUND WHEN EVERYONE YOU THOUHT WAS YOUR FRIEND JUST BLATANTLY TALKED BEHIND YOUR BACK IN HIGHSCHOOL. FIND SOMEONE THAT WILL SUPPORT YOUR CHOICE OF BOYFRIEND AND AID YOU IN LIES TO SEE HIM. FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL LISTEN TO HOW ROUGH YOU HAVE IT AND BELIEVE IT. FIND SOMEONE WHO KNOWS WHAT FRIEND SHIP IS, BECAUSE I AM SHITTY AT IT. HOWEVER I RECALL LETTING YOU PUKE ON MY ARMS WHILE I HELD YOUR HAIR UP BECAUSE YOU DRANK TOO MUCH. BUT WHEN A YEAR AGO I HAD MY FIRST EXPERIENCE WITH SOME SEVERE BINGE DRINKING AND PUKING UNCONSCIOUSLY ON MYSELF YOU HAD SOMEONE WE BARELY KNOW TAKE CARE OF ME WHILE YOU SAT OUTSIDE DOWN THE HALL BECAUSE IT WAS TOO GROSS FOR YOU. AND REMEMBER HOW WHEN WE WERE LITTLE I COULD ALWAYS CONSIDER YOU AND LEAH MY FRIEND BUT YOU TWO HATED EACH OTHER, YOU ALWAYS TOLD ME YOU COULDN'T STAND HER, BUT THEN WHEN WE WERE ALL TOGETHER YOU TWO ALWAYS GANGED UP ON ME?
I HOPE YOU FIND A REAL FRIEND, BECAUSE I KNOW I HAVE A COUPLE TO SPARE.
THE VOICEMAIL FROM YOU:
"SINCE YOU'RE TWO YEARS OLD AND CAN'T ANSWER YOUR PHONE OR YOUR DOOR, I JUST WANT TO SAY FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU MEAGAN, BECAUSE YOU'RE THE WORSE FUCKING BEST FRIEND I'VE EVER HAD IN MY FUCKING LIFE. YOU SUCK AS A FRIEND, YOU'RE ALWAYS WITH YOUR STUPID-ASS UGLY BOYFRIEND, WHO DOESN'T KNOW SHIT, OKAY? I ASK YOU TO PICK ME UP ONE TIME LIKE I'VE EVER FUCKING ASKED YOU TO PICK ME UP ANYWHRE, MAYBE ONCE IN MY LIFE IN GAINESVILLE, WHICH I DON'T THINK IS A BIG DEAL TO GO TO TARGET. BUT YOU ARE SO FUCKING OBSESSED WITH MONEY AND GAS AND ALL THAT SHIT AND FRIENDSHIP MEANS NOTHING TO YOU? FUCK YOU. SERIOUSLY FUCK YOU."
let's get to it then... as for the spat, i received a call from her this afternoon asking if i could pick her and her sister up when they were finished shopping because they decided to buy a lot more then they wanted to walk home and they knew i was probably home. sure i said, just give me a call when you're finished. a little background story, i had planned to go visit my brother in st. augustine for the weekend and i got a phone call from my cousin shortly after saying that my aunt and uncle was in town and that they would like me to join them for a late lunch before i left. mind you, i still had to finish packing and get ready to go. shortly after i received a second phone call from her saying that they were ready, and i said i'd leave shortly. i finished up and got everything ready, leaving my bags so there would be more room for there stuff so i could get them, drop them off, grab my stuff and get going. i got there when i could which was literally about 20 mins since the phone call, as opposed to the afforementioned and overexaggerated 45 min in her post. as i pull up in front of the place i get a phone call from her saying "Umm.. you took too long, so me and ___ don't need you, we're already walking." in other words meaning: your time means nothing to us. we are walking because you inconvenienced us. we could not wait 20 min for a favor that we asked for, that is entirely way too long. it meant nothing that you stopped what you were doing, and arranged plans around us. we apparently did not buy more than we could carry because we're walking perfectly fine with it.
Yet they wonder why i did not stop when i passed them to pick them up. they wonder why i chose to hang up and move on with the rest of my day. she wonders why i didnt answer my door to someone that was "too good for my effort five min ago" pounding like the police (literally no exaggeration here.)but if you read her post i am a horrible person that only cares about myself and apparantly gas money.... WELL LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING SWEETHEART... THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND YOU, OR YOUR PRINCESS SISTER. IF SOMEONE GOES OUT OF THEIR WAY TO DO YOU A FAVOR, YOU TAKE WHAT YOU CAN GET WHEN YOU CAN GET IT. BECAUSE GUESS WHAT? IT'S A FAVOR. THE TWO OF YOU HAPPEN TO BE TWO OF THE MOST INCONSIDERATE, AND SPOILED PEOPLE I HAVE EVER COME ACROSS. AND I HATE TO SAY THAT MANY PEOPLE AGREE WHETHER EITHER ONE OF YOU REALIZES IT. IT DISGUSTS ME THAT YOU COULD WRITE A POST THAT SOME HOW COMPLETELY MAKES YOU LOOK LIKE A VICTIM, I CAN'T BELEIVE THAT YOU COULD BE SO SELFISH. YOU CONTINUALLY THROW YOURSELF A PITY PARTY AND MAKE IT SEEM LIKE THE WORLD IS OUT TO GET YOU. LET ME LET YOU IN ON A SECRET... IT IS. THE WORLD IS OUT TO EAT EVERYONE OF US UP ALIVE AND IT IS NOBODY'S JOB BUT YOUR OWN TO PROTECT YOURSELF FROM IT. I WILL NO LONGER ALLOW YOU TO MAKE EXCUSES FOR YOURSELF. SURE YOU MAY RARELY ASK ME FOR A RIDE, BUT I ALWAYS GIVE IT TO YOU IF I CAN. THE POINT IS, WHICH THE TWO OF YOU DON'T SEEM TO GET IT IS, THAT YOU BOTH CONTINUALLY CHOOSE NOT TO WORK. YOU CONTINUALLY CHOOSE NOT TO HAVE A CAR, AND INSTEAD OF LIVING WITH THAT CHOICE (because you two could easily get jobs with the amount of spare time you have, and buy a car even if its a piece) YOU INSIST ON DEPENDING ON OTHERS TO COME ON YOUR EVERY BECKON CALL. AND APPARENTLY THERE IS A TIME LIMIT. YOU MENTION COMMON COURTESY... COMMON COURTESY IS THAT YOU DON'T ASK SOMEONE TO GO OUT OF THEIR WAY FOR YOU JUST SO YOU CAN DECIDE THEIR EFFORTS WEREN'T CONVENIENT ENOUGH FOR YOU. YOU TALK OF FREINDSHIP AND HOW I AM TERRIBLE AT IT. YOU NEED TO OPEN YOUR FREAKING EYES AND THINK HARD ABOUT HOW MUCH I REALLY HAVE BEEN THERE FOR YOU. THIS PAST SUMMER WHEN YOU THOUGHT YOU HIT YOUR LOW WHO TOOK YOU IN AND GAVE YOU THEIR FULL ATTENTION, ADVICE, COMFORT AND HOPE, INSTEAD OF THEIR MOM WHEN IT WAS HER BIRTHDAY? YOU TOLD ME HOW TERRIBLE THINGS WERE FOR YOU AT HOME AND THAT YOU COULDN'T LIVE THERE EVER AGAIN, THAT THIS WAS IT. I TOLD YOU WHAT TO DO, HOW TO DO IT, I TAUGHT YOU WHAT IT TAKES TO BE TRULY INDEPENDENT AND YOU COULDN'T EVEN HOLD THE DAMN JOB. YOU HAVE NO CONVICTION IN ANYTHING YOU DO. YOU'VE NEVER TRULY DONE ANYTHING FOR YOURSELF AND IT IS SAD. YOU'VE NEVER LIVED A HARD DAY IN YOUR LIFE. YOU HAVE SO MUCH TO BE GREATFUL FOR AND YOU SPIT ON IT EVERYDAY. YOU AND YOUR SISTER EXPECT THE WORLD TO CATER TO YOU. THE TWO OF YOU HAVE LOST MANY FRIENDS OVER THE YEARS, YET YOU DON'T SEEM TO QUESTION WHY, YOU THINK THERE MUST BE SOMETHING WRONG WITH EVERYONE ELSE IN THE WORLD BUT YOURSELVES. SELFISH. YOU FAIL TO TAKE ANY SORT OF ACCOUNTABILITY FOR YOUR ACTIONS. YOU CRY ABOUT HOW YOU HAVE NO MONEY BUT YOU DON'T MAKE ANY EFFORT ASIDE FROM CALLING YOUR GRANDMA AND MAKING HER FEEL SORRY FOR YOU. DISGUSTING. SURE YOU WORK ON THE BREAKS, BUT WHAT DO YOU DO WITH THAT MONEY? OH WAIT YOU'RE TAKING A LOVELY TRIP TO NEW YORK SOON, WHICH I'M ALMOST WILLING TO BET YOU WILL COERCE YOUR MOM INTO CONTRIBUTING TO THE CAUSE SINCE YOU'RE GOING WITH YOUR SISTER. IT MUST BE NICE TO HAVE ALL THAT FINANCIAL AID TO BLOW ON A TRIP WHEN YOU CAN'T SEEM TO PAY YOUR OWN RENT (or save to buy a car maybe?...hmm...nah, that's crazy...)I CONTINUALLY HOPE THAT ONE DAY, IF NOT THE BOTH OF YOU, THAT YOU ATLEAST START TO GET IT. BUT I'M NOT SURE IT WILL EVER HAPPEN. YOU WANT TO KNOW SOMETHING? GAS MONEY DOES MEAN A LOT TO ME, AND SO DOES MY MONEY, BECAUSE IT'S ACTUALLY MY MONEY, NOT MOMMY AND DADDY'S. AND YOU CAN EVEN ARGUE THAT YOU GIVE ME GAS MONEY...GUESS WHAT? IF YOU HAD A CAR, YOU'D REALIZE THAT 20-30$ DOESN'T COME ANYWHERE CLOSE TO A ROUNDTRIP FROM GAINESVILLE, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU BRING YOUR LIFE HOME WITH YOU AND EVEN MORE BACK UP PLUS THE WEIGHT OF YOU YOURSELF. IT'S CALLED WEAR AND TEAR OF A VEHICLE. BUT DO I THANKYOU FOR IT ANYWAY? I LOVE HOW YOU BRING UP YOUR BOYFRIEND PAYING FOR ME. LET'S CLARIFY THIS, YOU USE ME AS A LIE TO TELL YOUR MOM SO YOU CAN STAY WITH HIM FOR A COUPLE DAYS IN WEST PALM, AND HAVE ME DRIVE WITH THE PROMISE THAT I WILL BE COMPENSATED. WE GO OUT HAVE A DINNER THAT I OFFER TO PAY MY PORTION OF AND HE REFUSES TO LET ME DO SO. WHICH IS VERY GENEROUS AND I THANKED HIM FOR. BUT THEN LATER YOU WANT TO SAY THAT HIS OFFER TO DO THAT MEANS THAT YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE TO HOLD UP TO YOUR END OF THE DEAL? FIRST OF ALL, HIS EXPENSES ARE NOT YOURS, AND ARE COMPLETELY UNRELATED, AND TWO I HAVE ALSO HAD BOYFRIENDS THAT HAVE PAID FOR YOUR MEALS, BUT UNLIKE YOU AND HIM, THEY ARE NOT TACKY ENOUGH TO HOLD IT OVER YOUR HEAD LATER. keep in mind that i'm not writing this in the heat of the moment like you chose to do, i've thought about my words and it's not like i got mad at you today therefore i'm going to rant and rave all over livejournal. these are ideas that i have wanted to convey to you practically our whole lives, but you just don't seem to get it. I LOVE HOW NOW THAT YOUR MAD AT ME YOU DECIDE THAT JOEY IS "UGLY AND STUPID, AND DOESN'T KNOW SHIT ABOUT ANYTHING."(as said in my lovely voicemail.) LET ME ASK YOU, WHAT THE HELL KIND OF INFORMATION ARE YOU BASING THAT OFF OF. HE HAS BEEN NOTHING SHORT OF KIND TO YOU AND ACCEPTING OF YOUR BOYFRIEND, ONE OF TWO OTHER PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD TO DO SO, THE OTHER I RECALL BEING MYSELF. AND YOU SUDDENLY DECIDE THAT ALL OF A SUDDEN HE'S UGLY AND STUPID. WAIT, WAIT, I THOUGHT IT WAS MY JOB TO BE IMMATURE, STOP DOING IT FOR ME SILLY. HOW DARE YOU, HAVE THE AUDACITY TO SAY ONE BAD WORD ABOUT HIM. HE KNOWS MORE ABOUT LIFE THAN YOU COULD EVER HOPE TO LEARN, HE IS KIND AND LOVING TO EVERYONE AND DOES NOT DESERVE SUCH DISRESPECT. HOW YOU COULD SAY HE'S STUPID IS BEYOND ME, HE DOESN'T GO TO YOUR SCHOOL BECAUSE HE HAD NO OTHER OPTIONS, HE GOT INTO EVERY OTHER SCHOOL IN THE STATE OF FLORIDA AND SOME OUT OF STATE, HE JUST REALLY HAS HIS SIGHTS ON UF, UNLIKE SOME. I COULD CARELESS IF YOU AND YOUR SISTER THINK HE'S NOT ATTRACTIVE, BECAUSE THE TWO OF YOU WILL NOT KNOW LOVE LIKE THAT ANYWHERE IN THE NEAR FUTURE. OH AND BREAKING UP EVERY OTHER DAY AND LETTING SOMEONE WHO ISNT YOUR BOYFRIEND FINGERFUCK YOU ARE NOT TYPICAL SIGNS OF IT. (what was really funny about that was how you tried to tell me, and yourself for that matter, that you were proud that you didn't do anything back to him. that it was just him touching you even though you wanted so much more...unbelievable...hope i didn't blow your cover) YET YOU MAKE ME OUT TO BE A WHORE FOR SPENDING MORE TIME WITH MY BOYFRIEND THEN I DO WITH YOU. WOOOOOW. HEAVEN FORBID I STUDY WITH SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY TAKES LIFE SERIOUSLY AND MOTIVATES ME. THAT MUST BE A TERRIBLE IDEA..HMM MAYBE I COULD HAVE STUDIED WITH YOU HAD YOU BOUGHT YOUR BOOKS..HOWD THAT ANTHRO CLASS GO BY THE WAY? OH WAIT YOU DROPPED IT. MUST BE NICE TO ONLY HAVE CLASS TUES AND THURS, SOME BEING ONLINE, DROP ONE, AND STILL NOT WORK. LET'S NOT FORGET THAT YOU PROBABLY WOULDN'T HAVE MADE IT THROUGH THOSE CLASSES WITHOUT YOU HAVING OTHER PEOPLE TAKE YOUR ONLINE TESTS, SUCH AS MYSELF, AND THE NEIGHBORS AND EXBOYFRIENDS YOU FLIRTED WITH BECAUSE YOU KNEW THEY'D DO IT. YOU MUST GET THIS IDEA OF USING PEOPLE FROM YOUR SISTER, SHE'S TERRIFIC AT IT. AS TO WHAT ME AND MY BOYFRIEND DO IS ENTIRELY KNOWN OF YOUR BUSINESS AND SOMETHING YOU DO NOT HAVE MUCH KNOWLEDGE OF, SO I SUGGEST YOU START PARTING WAYS WITH THE IDEA THAT I'M SOME KIND OF SLUT, BECAUSE IN THE END IT'S YOU WITH SHIT ON YOUR FACE. IT'S REALLY SAD THAT THIS HAS TO BE SAID LIKE THIS BUT I'LL PLAY THE GAME YOU WANT TO PLAY. SURE NOW I MUST SEEM LIKE A TERRIBLE FRIEND. AND SOME HOW I KNOW YOU WILL READ THIS AND CONVINCE YOURSELF THAT I'M WRONG, OR STUPID. YOU MIGHT EVEN SHOW YOUR SISTER AND SHE MIGHT CONVINCE YOU BOTH THAT IM UGLY AND A BITCH, WHICH IS THE PATH SHE SEEMS TO TAKE WHEN SHE BURNS THE BRIDGES IN HER LIFE. YOU TWO CAN TRY TO BELIEVE THAT I'M WRONG AND YOU'LL TELL YOUR BOYFRIEND AND YOUR ROOMATE. THAT'S FINE, I EXPECT IT OF YOU, BUT ONE DAY WITH ANY LUCK IT WILL HIT YOU. BECAUSE I HATE TO SAY IT BUT YOU DON'T HAVE MANY FRIENDS LEFT. SURE YOU CAN TAKE ME OFF YOUR TOP EIGHT (which without a doubt i already confirmed you did haha) YOU CAN STOP TALKING TO ME OR WHATEVER WHICH IS FINE BECAUSE RIGHT NOW I'M NOT PUTTING UP WITH IT ANYWAY, AND YOU CAN BELEIVE THAT YOUR ROOMATE YOU'VE KNOWN FOR A YEAR, YOUR BOYFRIENDS EX GIRLFRIEND THAT HE DATED IN BETWEEN YOU, AND HIM ARE THE ONLY PEOPLE YOU NEED. SURE YOU HAVE THE NEIGHBOR BUT HE'S MOVING, AND YOU CAN ALWAYS FLIRT WITH YOUR EX SO HE HANGS OUT WITH YOU AND PAYS FOR YOU THAT'S COOL TOO. CONTINUE TO SLANDER MY NAME ON LIVEJOURNAL SINCE YOU HAVE FEW PEOPLE TO TELL, BUT REMEMBER YOU LOSE CREDIBILITY MORE AND MORE THESE DAYS. I HOPE WHOEVER YOU DECIDE YOU DUB YOUR BEST FRIEND WILL STICK UP FOR YOU WHEN YOU'RE NOT AROUND WHEN EVERYONE YOU THOUHT WAS YOUR FRIEND JUST BLATANTLY TALKED BEHIND YOUR BACK IN HIGHSCHOOL. FIND SOMEONE THAT WILL SUPPORT YOUR CHOICE OF BOYFRIEND AND AID YOU IN LIES TO SEE HIM. FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL LISTEN TO HOW ROUGH YOU HAVE IT AND BELIEVE IT. FIND SOMEONE WHO KNOWS WHAT FRIEND SHIP IS, BECAUSE I AM SHITTY AT IT. HOWEVER I RECALL LETTING YOU PUKE ON MY ARMS WHILE I HELD YOUR HAIR UP BECAUSE YOU DRANK TOO MUCH. BUT WHEN A YEAR AGO I HAD MY FIRST EXPERIENCE WITH SOME SEVERE BINGE DRINKING AND PUKING UNCONSCIOUSLY ON MYSELF YOU HAD SOMEONE WE BARELY KNOW TAKE CARE OF ME WHILE YOU SAT OUTSIDE DOWN THE HALL BECAUSE IT WAS TOO GROSS FOR YOU. AND REMEMBER HOW WHEN WE WERE LITTLE I COULD ALWAYS CONSIDER YOU AND LEAH MY FRIEND BUT YOU TWO HATED EACH OTHER, YOU ALWAYS TOLD ME YOU COULDN'T STAND HER, BUT THEN WHEN WE WERE ALL TOGETHER YOU TWO ALWAYS GANGED UP ON ME?
I HOPE YOU FIND A REAL FRIEND, BECAUSE I KNOW I HAVE A COUPLE TO SPARE.
THE VOICEMAIL FROM YOU:
"SINCE YOU'RE TWO YEARS OLD AND CAN'T ANSWER YOUR PHONE OR YOUR DOOR, I JUST WANT TO SAY FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU MEAGAN, BECAUSE YOU'RE THE WORSE FUCKING BEST FRIEND I'VE EVER HAD IN MY FUCKING LIFE. YOU SUCK AS A FRIEND, YOU'RE ALWAYS WITH YOUR STUPID-ASS UGLY BOYFRIEND, WHO DOESN'T KNOW SHIT, OKAY? I ASK YOU TO PICK ME UP ONE TIME LIKE I'VE EVER FUCKING ASKED YOU TO PICK ME UP ANYWHRE, MAYBE ONCE IN MY LIFE IN GAINESVILLE, WHICH I DON'T THINK IS A BIG DEAL TO GO TO TARGET. BUT YOU ARE SO FUCKING OBSESSED WITH MONEY AND GAS AND ALL THAT SHIT AND FRIENDSHIP MEANS NOTHING TO YOU? FUCK YOU. SERIOUSLY FUCK YOU."