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if it wasn't for school, living at home, ¬ making enough money, i would be perfectly happy right now.
i have midterms &papers in the next two days. i have studied for one midterm, &vaguely started a paper, &by that i mean i have some ideas floating around in my head. tomorrow i have to wake up at 7am, write this paper, study all day long, take a midterm, then study for the next midterm &write the next paper. why am i such a procrastinatorrrrr. oh well, because i will get it all done &next week im going to do nothing except sleep, eat food, &watch oprah &y &r.
living at home SUCKS. bad. i can never have people over, or any sort of personal freedom. but this is all going to change soon when i get an apartment in stl in may. i just have to save some dough &convince my mom to cosign this loan for me. i just want to lay around with my bf or my friends or my cat ¬ be bummed out about my enviroment anymore.
the kastle has it's ups &downs. working on the weekends makes you feel left out ¬ social- disconnected. walking around &hauling ass in heels all night wears my body down, &i always feel sick the next day. the pressure to make tips my paying so much attention to gross men &bitchy girls is depressing. but i have worked my way up there & have been working there almost three months. can you believe it? i also really love almost everyone i work with, especially all of the cocktail girls. i also have no option but to stick with it until summer.
some things are good. despite dreading school, i am doing well in all of my classes, &rarely skip. every urge i've had to quit my job i have ignored, &that hasn't been easy. i really do love all of my friends, old ones &new ones, even if i never see anyone. maggie is such a little bitch, but she is so pretty &neat. i even love her when i try to move her off of my pillow at night &she growls at me.
sean couldn't be any cooler. we saw constantine tonight just because it was the only late movie we could see in time. the movie was AWFUL, but i still had a good time. but from now on we decided anytime we cough we're going to call ourselves constantine because we are big dorks who make stupid jokes all the time. i can't even write about him because i don't know what to say or how to explain him that would do him any justice. natalie told me she feelslike he's the person we've been waiting for (she's so on my side about everything, it's cute) &i don't evenw ant to say i agree because i feel like gushing &talking about him is just going to jinx me or fuck things up or have everything explode in my face. so i'm leaving it with my favorite bobby d. song &thats about it.
Like your smile
And your fingertips
Like the way that you move your lips.
I like the cool way you look at me,
Everything about you is bringing me
Misery.
IM SUCH A GEEK IM SORRY. but yeah, there's a pretty thorough update on my life. i didn't tyr to make anything funny &i left out all of the funny anecdotes so i know that was boring to read. silent clap if you read it. haha.
i have midterms &papers in the next two days. i have studied for one midterm, &vaguely started a paper, &by that i mean i have some ideas floating around in my head. tomorrow i have to wake up at 7am, write this paper, study all day long, take a midterm, then study for the next midterm &write the next paper. why am i such a procrastinatorrrrr. oh well, because i will get it all done &next week im going to do nothing except sleep, eat food, &watch oprah &y &r.
living at home SUCKS. bad. i can never have people over, or any sort of personal freedom. but this is all going to change soon when i get an apartment in stl in may. i just have to save some dough &convince my mom to cosign this loan for me. i just want to lay around with my bf or my friends or my cat ¬ be bummed out about my enviroment anymore.
the kastle has it's ups &downs. working on the weekends makes you feel left out ¬ social- disconnected. walking around &hauling ass in heels all night wears my body down, &i always feel sick the next day. the pressure to make tips my paying so much attention to gross men &bitchy girls is depressing. but i have worked my way up there & have been working there almost three months. can you believe it? i also really love almost everyone i work with, especially all of the cocktail girls. i also have no option but to stick with it until summer.
some things are good. despite dreading school, i am doing well in all of my classes, &rarely skip. every urge i've had to quit my job i have ignored, &that hasn't been easy. i really do love all of my friends, old ones &new ones, even if i never see anyone. maggie is such a little bitch, but she is so pretty &neat. i even love her when i try to move her off of my pillow at night &she growls at me.
sean couldn't be any cooler. we saw constantine tonight just because it was the only late movie we could see in time. the movie was AWFUL, but i still had a good time. but from now on we decided anytime we cough we're going to call ourselves constantine because we are big dorks who make stupid jokes all the time. i can't even write about him because i don't know what to say or how to explain him that would do him any justice. natalie told me she feelslike he's the person we've been waiting for (she's so on my side about everything, it's cute) &i don't evenw ant to say i agree because i feel like gushing &talking about him is just going to jinx me or fuck things up or have everything explode in my face. so i'm leaving it with my favorite bobby d. song &thats about it.
Like your smile
And your fingertips
Like the way that you move your lips.
I like the cool way you look at me,
Everything about you is bringing me
Misery.
IM SUCH A GEEK IM SORRY. but yeah, there's a pretty thorough update on my life. i didn't tyr to make anything funny &i left out all of the funny anecdotes so i know that was boring to read. silent clap if you read it. haha.