shed light
i'm taking a risk soon.
a big risk.
i'm moving in with people i don't know.
two gay guys who are going to eventually get married....if they can that is.
i'm downsizing as well, but i'll be right across from the highschool and it is $50 cheaper.
honestly, i don't really want to be close to my alma matter, but there are certain people there that i need to talk to because i need my future back.
i've been writing songs like crazy. i've been active in playwright's circle. and i've been working and supporting myself since august, fully. even though i was on my own at 18, doesn't mean that i didn't get money from my mom.
i havent talked to my mom or seen her.
it really bothers me.
i try, but michea..l i think wants me to try hard and get a car.
i can get my license back, but i need a car. sooo...i applied to starbucks today.
back to coffee, i guess. i'll still keep my job at california pizza kitchen, but i need a place i can work that will give me hours. i need those fat paychecks.
i'm going to start writing essays for several schools i want to go to. so when i move i'm so glad i'll have access to the internet!
i'm at dorothy's family's house right now.
just when i finally don't want anyone.......a scorpio appears.
hes older, but we haven't
EVEN kissed. i don't even know if he knows that i like him. i don't really know what to do. i'd rather keep on tossing the idea of "is he interested or not?" in the air so i don't find an answer.....because when i do....THATS IT. i'll be heartbroken...just have one more thing to add to my low self esteem...or i'll have to start a relationship. something i feel that i will never be capable to start...or more distinctively...carry on with.
i really don't know how to go about finding out whether or not his feelings for me could ever be romantic. a week ago he brought me tums when my tummy ached :). hes very open minded, a business owner, a chef, and a dj. hardworker type, which lately i have found to be extremely attractive...someone who, although maybe tied to his work, is secure.
he does however flirt with other girls, and i know that could be a sure sign that he doesn't like me, but as far as hes concerned..he probably just thinks i want to be friends....and thats it.
fuck, i dont know what i want.
but i do know that that fucking skiny ass crackwhore he was flirting with with big frizzy hair and a pointy ass nose better not touch him............
yep. i'm jealous.
i'm not the jealous type now. although, i use to be in high school.
shit i do like him.
great!
FUCK!
could someone shed light on this for me?
im an adult in every other aspect of my life except for this.
a big risk.
i'm moving in with people i don't know.
two gay guys who are going to eventually get married....if they can that is.
i'm downsizing as well, but i'll be right across from the highschool and it is $50 cheaper.
honestly, i don't really want to be close to my alma matter, but there are certain people there that i need to talk to because i need my future back.
i've been writing songs like crazy. i've been active in playwright's circle. and i've been working and supporting myself since august, fully. even though i was on my own at 18, doesn't mean that i didn't get money from my mom.
i havent talked to my mom or seen her.
it really bothers me.
i try, but michea..l i think wants me to try hard and get a car.
i can get my license back, but i need a car. sooo...i applied to starbucks today.
back to coffee, i guess. i'll still keep my job at california pizza kitchen, but i need a place i can work that will give me hours. i need those fat paychecks.
i'm going to start writing essays for several schools i want to go to. so when i move i'm so glad i'll have access to the internet!
i'm at dorothy's family's house right now.
just when i finally don't want anyone.......a scorpio appears.
hes older, but we haven't
EVEN kissed. i don't even know if he knows that i like him. i don't really know what to do. i'd rather keep on tossing the idea of "is he interested or not?" in the air so i don't find an answer.....because when i do....THATS IT. i'll be heartbroken...just have one more thing to add to my low self esteem...or i'll have to start a relationship. something i feel that i will never be capable to start...or more distinctively...carry on with.
i really don't know how to go about finding out whether or not his feelings for me could ever be romantic. a week ago he brought me tums when my tummy ached :). hes very open minded, a business owner, a chef, and a dj. hardworker type, which lately i have found to be extremely attractive...someone who, although maybe tied to his work, is secure.
he does however flirt with other girls, and i know that could be a sure sign that he doesn't like me, but as far as hes concerned..he probably just thinks i want to be friends....and thats it.
fuck, i dont know what i want.
but i do know that that fucking skiny ass crackwhore he was flirting with with big frizzy hair and a pointy ass nose better not touch him............
yep. i'm jealous.
i'm not the jealous type now. although, i use to be in high school.
shit i do like him.
great!
FUCK!
could someone shed light on this for me?
im an adult in every other aspect of my life except for this.