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I have been thinking of writing in here for awhile now, but never really felt like it.
I used to use my Xanga all the time, but that got lame because I would just update with the pointless shit going on in my life. I was heavily mocked for having an online journal, but I didn't care. I enjoyed updating, it gave me things to do while sitting here at 3 AM. Then I sought of abruptly stopped updating, with the sporadic entry every month or so. About a month or so ago, I was feeling kind of depressed and lonely, and extremely bored, so I went back and read through all of my old entries, and that made me more depressed. I realized that nothing has changed since I stopped updating that, and that was over a year ago. I made a bunch of entries in the Fall, and in retrospect, this past fall was exactly the same. In conjunction with a conversation with James about a month ago, I came to this conclusion: New faces, new attitudes, new locations, but all in all, the same shit. Mandi took over the resident female spot Rachael held. Bob took over as me, as he was a given to be there along with Steve. Dave took over for James. James and I kind of replaced Jay and Arty, as we would do our own things and occasionally hang out with the "group", or what have you, and kind of pushed off to the side. Denny's became the Diner, hanging out at Stockton became the occasional hang out at Smith residence. (I am talking about the Fall such as November and December, not necessarily the current time period). Even the scholastic aspect was the same. Instead of me on the verge of failing out, and eventually deciding to take time off, Steve was in that position this year.
I'm not really sure why I got into this, I guess a thought just popped into my head and I had to run with it. This isn't meant to be taken as a rant or anything, as I'm not attempting to start drama or problems here, but it's just something I had thought about.
I used to use my Xanga all the time, but that got lame because I would just update with the pointless shit going on in my life. I was heavily mocked for having an online journal, but I didn't care. I enjoyed updating, it gave me things to do while sitting here at 3 AM. Then I sought of abruptly stopped updating, with the sporadic entry every month or so. About a month or so ago, I was feeling kind of depressed and lonely, and extremely bored, so I went back and read through all of my old entries, and that made me more depressed. I realized that nothing has changed since I stopped updating that, and that was over a year ago. I made a bunch of entries in the Fall, and in retrospect, this past fall was exactly the same. In conjunction with a conversation with James about a month ago, I came to this conclusion: New faces, new attitudes, new locations, but all in all, the same shit. Mandi took over the resident female spot Rachael held. Bob took over as me, as he was a given to be there along with Steve. Dave took over for James. James and I kind of replaced Jay and Arty, as we would do our own things and occasionally hang out with the "group", or what have you, and kind of pushed off to the side. Denny's became the Diner, hanging out at Stockton became the occasional hang out at Smith residence. (I am talking about the Fall such as November and December, not necessarily the current time period). Even the scholastic aspect was the same. Instead of me on the verge of failing out, and eventually deciding to take time off, Steve was in that position this year.
I'm not really sure why I got into this, I guess a thought just popped into my head and I had to run with it. This isn't meant to be taken as a rant or anything, as I'm not attempting to start drama or problems here, but it's just something I had thought about.