A little venting
Yea its mostly my fault i assume... its my fault on many levels i should have known that i wasnt superficial enough to pull off the timless, party going, bull shit, fake laughing, personality you wanted me to have.. im sorry to me these things meet more... you didnt meet my expectations and i couldnt meet mine under my own pretenses of what i assumed was how every one thought these things should work. My ideals are rarely those which others hold dear and my expectations are high! I expect alot assume i will! I expect plenty from me to give to you and i think you should i hold up to my own expectations that i hold for you. I think that i would do any thing any one asked meto do as long as it didnt interfere with my own morals and better judgement. Mine cleary is different than others also i assume because to me your morals seem to be askew with what i was brought up with. I wont bother with the im sorrys to be stabbed while i look the other way and i wont bother with the hellos so you can talk down about me when im not around. Am i ever around did it ever really matter to you? yes? no, no.... no it didnt. I was just another mark up on your wall for "if you had the time" Thats what you have become to me and right now my calendar is looking awfully full, maybe next spring we'll do lunch.