heading for the big D?
i talked to my mom today. basically what she said (yes i'm giving you the reader's digest version) is that after 26 yrs its starting to get to the point where you throw up your hands and say "i've had enough"... see... it's an Else thing. you have an issue - you work through it. very very rarely ask for help. sounds familiar right? yea we've been there before. but this isn't about me, its about my dad. dad's got a lot of anger built up for whatever reason. none of us know cause... dundundun he doesnt talk about it. just bites off heads. i think it has something to do with the fact that they've put him on alert again and havent told him where he'd be going. either louisiana, germany, or back to iraq. i know my father well enough to know he cant stand being away from his family. any way... i think moms reaction to this anger/frustration/faciciousness (sry bout my spelling)... is putting herself more into her work. so she's at work all day then comes home and locks herself in her study here and is on the computer all night. now lately she hasnt been doing actual work while shes in there. lately she's been on msn chat with doris... and i konw that gets to dad because instead of spending time with him shes online talking to guys in colombia and talking to doris. ... *sigh* mom actually felt the need to say "if anything does happen its not your fault. and its not madison's. it'll be important for the two of you to know that." here i am trying to be all adult about it and all i can think is how ... its not suppose to be like this. THEY'RE MARRIED. they've said the words "till death do us part" at least three times now... twice in my presence (they've had their vows renewed twice)... i'm one of those ppl that takes those words literally. i dont believe you should get married if you're not willing to go through with it and life and die with this person.
... ... what is going on?
... ... what is going on?