New vid! - "This Is What It Feels Like" (Selfie)
This is the first vid I've made for myself since August 2012. After battling epic technical issues, if you thought I was going to get this close to having it done and not post it, even with Festivids breathing down its neck, you were sadly mistaken. At least now you have something to do while you wait for the Festivids list?
Title: This Is What It Feels Like
Fandom: Selfie
Song: Armin van Buuren feat. Trevor Guthrie, "This Is What It Feels Like"
Spoilers: For the whole show
Summary: I can't make it to the shore without your light
Warnings: Some mild strobing (as used in the show at one point) and back-and-forth intercutting smattered about.
A/N: Thank you to belmanoir for a really astute review of the initial draft. And thanks to mrs-laugh-track and goodbyebird for unflagging enthusiasm for both the show and the vid as I nearly drowned in the Swamps of Despair.
Download the vid here (right-click, save target as; 163 MB - if you want a smaller version, please let me know! I figured nobody downloads vids anymore so I might as well offer the best quality possible to anyone who actually does) or stream it at YouTube here.
You can also watch the streaming YouTube version embedded here:
Lyrics
Nobody here knocking at my door
The sound of silence I can’t take anymore
Nobody ringing my telephone now
Oh how I miss such a beautiful sound
And I don’t even know how I survive
I won’t make it to the shore without your light
No I don’t even know if I’m alive
Oh, oh, oh without you now
This is what it feels like
Nothing to hold but the memories and frames
Oh they remind me of the battle I face
without your love, without you I drown
Somebody save me I’m going down
And I don’t even know how I survive
I won’t make it to the shore without your light
No I don’t even know if I’m alive
Oh, oh, oh without you now
This is what it feels like
And I don’t even know how I survive
I won’t make it down the road with one headlight
No I don’t even know if I’m alive
Oh, oh, oh without you now
This is what it feels like
This vid took so much longer to make than it had any right to. But something happened in-between exporting my mp4 files into .mov files so my old version of FCP could work with them, and then rendering and re-exporting the vid for viewing. There became terrible coloring artifacts that I literally could not get rid of, no matter what I did, and the MORE I did, the worse it got. I ended up buying an upgrade version of Final Cut via eBay, installing that, getting new source eps that were problem-free, and then re-building the entire vid, clip-by-clip, on a brand new timeline. Turns out, though, that FCP 6 actually takes mp4 files, so miraculously it turned out to be for the best. This vid made me cry ACTUAL TEARS of frustration, though, which is what I will think of every time I watch it. Hee.
I also re-watched the series after I got comments back on the first draft, to try to pick out a few visually more emotional scenes for some pieces, so that also took extra time I did not expect to spend. But it was time well-spent, and the vid is better for having done it. I can't believe how long it's been since I made a non-Festivids vid. This is so weird! At least I didn't waste my Festivids/social media hiatus time!
One thing I discovered - or at least have finally been able to articulate for myself - is that part of the reason I have trouble finishing, or even working on, vids these days is because my time is SO scattered and incremental that it becomes extremely hard to keep any but the most ardent vid ideas (or deadlines!) alive through all the other stuff going on in my life. I can love a vid idea a LOT and it still isn't enough to get me over that mountain. What helped this vid was not only the idea, but ultimately my deep and abiding love for the show itself. The whole cancellation movement was in its own way a spur to try to get the vid finished.
As always, vidding has fed the vidding bug and now I want to work on All The Ideas, but knowing what I know now, I'm going to have to see what bubbles to the top and then feed it constantly if I want to get it done. We'll see what happens.
omg y'all it's a VID.
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Title: This Is What It Feels Like
Fandom: Selfie
Song: Armin van Buuren feat. Trevor Guthrie, "This Is What It Feels Like"
Spoilers: For the whole show
Summary: I can't make it to the shore without your light
Warnings: Some mild strobing (as used in the show at one point) and back-and-forth intercutting smattered about.
A/N: Thank you to belmanoir for a really astute review of the initial draft. And thanks to mrs-laugh-track and goodbyebird for unflagging enthusiasm for both the show and the vid as I nearly drowned in the Swamps of Despair.
Download the vid here (right-click, save target as; 163 MB - if you want a smaller version, please let me know! I figured nobody downloads vids anymore so I might as well offer the best quality possible to anyone who actually does) or stream it at YouTube here.
You can also watch the streaming YouTube version embedded here:
Click to viewLyrics
Nobody here knocking at my door
The sound of silence I can’t take anymore
Nobody ringing my telephone now
Oh how I miss such a beautiful sound
And I don’t even know how I survive
I won’t make it to the shore without your light
No I don’t even know if I’m alive
Oh, oh, oh without you now
This is what it feels like
Nothing to hold but the memories and frames
Oh they remind me of the battle I face
without your love, without you I drown
Somebody save me I’m going down
And I don’t even know how I survive
I won’t make it to the shore without your light
No I don’t even know if I’m alive
Oh, oh, oh without you now
This is what it feels like
And I don’t even know how I survive
I won’t make it down the road with one headlight
No I don’t even know if I’m alive
Oh, oh, oh without you now
This is what it feels like
This vid took so much longer to make than it had any right to. But something happened in-between exporting my mp4 files into .mov files so my old version of FCP could work with them, and then rendering and re-exporting the vid for viewing. There became terrible coloring artifacts that I literally could not get rid of, no matter what I did, and the MORE I did, the worse it got. I ended up buying an upgrade version of Final Cut via eBay, installing that, getting new source eps that were problem-free, and then re-building the entire vid, clip-by-clip, on a brand new timeline. Turns out, though, that FCP 6 actually takes mp4 files, so miraculously it turned out to be for the best. This vid made me cry ACTUAL TEARS of frustration, though, which is what I will think of every time I watch it. Hee.
I also re-watched the series after I got comments back on the first draft, to try to pick out a few visually more emotional scenes for some pieces, so that also took extra time I did not expect to spend. But it was time well-spent, and the vid is better for having done it. I can't believe how long it's been since I made a non-Festivids vid. This is so weird! At least I didn't waste my Festivids/social media hiatus time!
One thing I discovered - or at least have finally been able to articulate for myself - is that part of the reason I have trouble finishing, or even working on, vids these days is because my time is SO scattered and incremental that it becomes extremely hard to keep any but the most ardent vid ideas (or deadlines!) alive through all the other stuff going on in my life. I can love a vid idea a LOT and it still isn't enough to get me over that mountain. What helped this vid was not only the idea, but ultimately my deep and abiding love for the show itself. The whole cancellation movement was in its own way a spur to try to get the vid finished.
As always, vidding has fed the vidding bug and now I want to work on All The Ideas, but knowing what I know now, I'm going to have to see what bubbles to the top and then feed it constantly if I want to get it done. We'll see what happens.
omg y'all it's a VID.
This entry was cross-posted at my Dreamwidth account. Please comment here or there. (
comments at DW)