:::Why settle for a plan B, when God already has a plan A?:::
I visited the Rock Church in Point Loma last night. It was spur of the moment, and unplanned. The jist of the message was, "why wait to get fixed to go to church? God wants to you to come as you are!" The speaker had no limbs. No arms, no legs. And yet, he was full of life and energy and had the ability to speak as though he were richer than every indiviual in that room.
I wanted to badly to come forward when he called several to the stage to re-give their life to God, and others to start walking with God for the first time. I couldn't figure out my place with-in the audience.
Maybe it was my being caught up in the new relationship with Mike. The relationship I now feel, I have put before my relationship with God.
It all feels so confusing. I feel as if I will never get it right sometimes. I thought for a brief second: "Finally!" But now I see I just messed up again. He would have picked up his phone tonight. He would have messages me, or acknowledged me on FB tonight. But the silence says it all.
Here I sit thinking about him, and there he is...thinking about me? The question is... what....are we thinking?