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ok i am tired of shady people and i am tired of me thinking i am one. so i will come out and say this shit here, this should cover what wasnt said at lunch: first off i just want to say i thought this band was great. it started good. it finished with shady people. today was a disaster, for ALL of us. there was not one person who didnt fuck up besides kamen because he didnt play. i would like to say to joe, you should know doug is being asked to play drums in the band in your place. because mr hamburg says, you arnt good enough. i thought you just wernt playing fast enough. and before we saw this as cool cause we are all progressing, i know i am. but supposivly hamburg talked to chas, chas talked to mike. and they decided to put the blame on your druming and my singing. first off in bad day chas played for 2 measures and mike consintarted on trying to get him back playing in the right spot. i didnt see matt do one thing wrong and kaymen just blew his horn where it sounded good. i dont want to say it out front and i havnt said it to anyone but i think the people to blame for that song isnt who was blamed. i know my singing isnt good and im done with the band but other then that, i think joe wasnt even close to who was to blame. idk im done with that. also i think its unfair for chas to sit back and say we need to learn our stuff better cause lets face it, orginally who wanted to play guitar, lets face it who needs ALOT of work on guitar. im just saying to you chas, you're awesome at bari because you have only played for the last 4 years of your life. we are just starting what we do, just how you were starting guitar 5 weeks ago and then dropped it for something that would make you look like you knew what you were doing. mike you're awesome at guitar, but i also think its unfair for you and chas to always being making decistions (even tho i know im going to hear a whole lot of crap after saying that). just please dont sit back and think your inferior to us. and dont tell me to stop pms cause after brie hitting me in the face at lunch + everything going on im not going to sit back and listen to that. matt, even though this is going to sound like im taking your side, i think you did nothing wrong, you started "words" and hamburg liked it then half way thro chas started playing. if anyone plays tonight i think it should be chas, mike and *you*. personally i think its unfair as matt said that you two are going to play OUR song, that we ALL worked on, without us. i feel the same way. and i have no idea what tim is going to say about it. i think he will feel the same way. but hey im not him. all i know is that im out until this gets straightend out, because im tired of the he said she said bullshit. im going to come out and say it too, i feel i did nothing wrong today, besides get a little hot tempered and sang the song the best i could at the correct speed. as hamburg would say, i thought you all were draging, i couldnt hear joe and kaymen played exactly where he was supposed to. i dont know but im done. i feel alot of others are too. i dont know, im sure the outcome of this final thing will come out soon. i know alot of others are done in this band too as was voiced to me, and um ya, from the mouth of amy i heard certain people have plans of kicking others out of the band. you know, i think this is good, another band might branch from this. i think we might do just fine. distant embers is a nice band name, hey but fiaska and fiasco are still free game...
hope you all are happy...
hope you all are happy...