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i dont know how to describe what i am feelng right now, why is this happening?, why...what is the purpose of this?, and what is the answer?, what is the reason? why did you allow this to happen to me? its like torture one min and nirvana the next. there has got to be a reason for this. its driving me to the point where i am questioning if what i am feeling is real or fake... i want this pain to stop... i know its a matter of time before i cant take it, i dont know what i am going to do, i dont know what i can do.... i just need this to stop...