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Maybe I should have just gone home after work. Such a long day, and the night will be even longer. Part of me is glad spring break is over, but part of me wishes it would last another week. I'll be up all night washing clothes for next week cause the dryer has been broke all week at home, least I won't have to pay to wash them at school, though I hope I won't fall asleep in church tomorrow. I also hope that the stinger's battery isn't out of juice and I can make it "home" tomorrow too, if not, who wants to help push me? I'm sure joey, jenn, ryan, josh, tana, and katie are tired of pushing it.
I only want to be where I know I should be, but just can't find the time or will power to go there. I'd like to just pass off the blame to something else, but by now it doesn't really matter. I know we can do it if we try, its not that hard. I'm sure things will get better, you just have to be patient with me. I'm all the man I can be and becoming more...I hope. The more of you I see the less I want. though it shouldn't be. I just need to slow down, though I am not going very fast compared to some, but too fast for me I guess. I am free, why can't I act like it?
I only want to be where I know I should be, but just can't find the time or will power to go there. I'd like to just pass off the blame to something else, but by now it doesn't really matter. I know we can do it if we try, its not that hard. I'm sure things will get better, you just have to be patient with me. I'm all the man I can be and becoming more...I hope. The more of you I see the less I want. though it shouldn't be. I just need to slow down, though I am not going very fast compared to some, but too fast for me I guess. I am free, why can't I act like it?