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So, it's been a good week. No, really. It's been... an almost amazing week, I think.
Last monday night, I got a call from the asshat's cousin, calling with the excuse that she had thought she'd seen me in the mall but couldn't call out to me because she was too far away. Oh, nevermind. I always liked her, and her sister, because they were the most centered of the bunch. So she asked how I was and I told her, well, I'm doing good, actually, though, you know, I'm no longer with him.
And she said, well, we didn't know for sure, but we were kinda guessing that, yeah. I mean, the asshat's mother's birthday was on December 12th, and because back then we had just broken up, I didn't go to her birthday party or anything. So I asked her about that, because even when the asshat was gone, I was still going to the gatherings. She said that they had asked about me, and his mom had said "oh, Johana is fine." Period. Nothing else.
After that, I kinda told her what had happened. I think I need yet another opinion. And after telling her, well, she was of the idea that I had done what I had to do, because being with him was more poissonous to me than being alone. And I think... maybe that helped, because ever since, it's like I can finally breathe. it's like... like when his cousin that loves him for as long as he's been alive, when she tells me, "I've seen the things he used to do to you, and all the cousins always wondered how you could put up with that", I think only after that I could truly believe that I had done right.
It's been an amazing week, when not only I had not cried (well, once, on friday night after posting ASA's final chapter because the irony that I had written a story where Seth picks Ryan, above everything, kinda killed me a bit) but also I've been able to think of him as past and long gone, and not as something I kinda wished would come back. IT's been... liberating, to say the least.
That said, I'm feeling all good and nice and free. I love this feeling.
When I get home, I'll post what I did this weekend. IT WAS AWESOME!
Last monday night, I got a call from the asshat's cousin, calling with the excuse that she had thought she'd seen me in the mall but couldn't call out to me because she was too far away. Oh, nevermind. I always liked her, and her sister, because they were the most centered of the bunch. So she asked how I was and I told her, well, I'm doing good, actually, though, you know, I'm no longer with him.
And she said, well, we didn't know for sure, but we were kinda guessing that, yeah. I mean, the asshat's mother's birthday was on December 12th, and because back then we had just broken up, I didn't go to her birthday party or anything. So I asked her about that, because even when the asshat was gone, I was still going to the gatherings. She said that they had asked about me, and his mom had said "oh, Johana is fine." Period. Nothing else.
After that, I kinda told her what had happened. I think I need yet another opinion. And after telling her, well, she was of the idea that I had done what I had to do, because being with him was more poissonous to me than being alone. And I think... maybe that helped, because ever since, it's like I can finally breathe. it's like... like when his cousin that loves him for as long as he's been alive, when she tells me, "I've seen the things he used to do to you, and all the cousins always wondered how you could put up with that", I think only after that I could truly believe that I had done right.
It's been an amazing week, when not only I had not cried (well, once, on friday night after posting ASA's final chapter because the irony that I had written a story where Seth picks Ryan, above everything, kinda killed me a bit) but also I've been able to think of him as past and long gone, and not as something I kinda wished would come back. IT's been... liberating, to say the least.
That said, I'm feeling all good and nice and free. I love this feeling.
When I get home, I'll post what I did this weekend. IT WAS AWESOME!