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There are moments... fleeting moments when I think "maybe I can do it, it's only another year, two at the most, if I just suck it up..." and then the pain kinda goes away and I realize that I've been doing that for the past year and a half (the first year was a breeze, I barely even felt it) and I turn around and see a couple, any couple, and jealousy burns a hole through me. I want someone to look at me and smile and hold my hand, and I really don't think that's asking for too much. I'm tired of not being first choice.
I need to change my cell phone plan before I lose my nerve and end up calling him.
On other not totally sucky news... I'm going to Cusco for two days, mostly just to point and choose the location of the boring holes and that's it. Sucks that I won't have time to do much but see the square and then come back, but at least that's something.
Also, I hope he's starting to realize that he's an idiot and he fucked up his life. I hope it hurts him. I'm evil like that. *g*
I need to change my cell phone plan before I lose my nerve and end up calling him.
On other not totally sucky news... I'm going to Cusco for two days, mostly just to point and choose the location of the boring holes and that's it. Sucks that I won't have time to do much but see the square and then come back, but at least that's something.
Also, I hope he's starting to realize that he's an idiot and he fucked up his life. I hope it hurts him. I'm evil like that. *g*