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Man, I really gotta start listening to my own advice. When I say I gotta stop reading Due South fic, I REALLY GOTTA STOP READING DUE SOUTH FIC.
Fuck.
It's bad enough Head Trip is slicing me into tiny little pieces, but no, I just gotta keep reading it. And now I wanna call Jose because what if we can make it work, what if... FUCK! I am not calling him. I AM NOT CALLING HIM. This is just me being weak as hell and in about two hours Sofia will arrive and she'll show me the error of my ways and... god, I just... I just hate this whole thing, you know? Why does he have to be such an ass and then I gotta remember the nice things he did and why the fuck!!!! COULD SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME BECAUSE I SURE AS FUCK DON'T GET IT.
And everyone here in the office is joking about how much I must be missing my guy and stuff, and next time they say that, instead of laughing kinda weirdly, I'm gonna open my mouth and say that actually, I'm single, and be done with it. Really. I've told a few guys from the plan thtat I'm single, but not from here, from this office, because they asked the second I got here if I had a boyfriend and I said yes, because back then I DID HAVE A BOYFRIEND and I have no idea how to say that I don't anymore.
FUCK.
Fuck.
It's bad enough Head Trip is slicing me into tiny little pieces, but no, I just gotta keep reading it. And now I wanna call Jose because what if we can make it work, what if... FUCK! I am not calling him. I AM NOT CALLING HIM. This is just me being weak as hell and in about two hours Sofia will arrive and she'll show me the error of my ways and... god, I just... I just hate this whole thing, you know? Why does he have to be such an ass and then I gotta remember the nice things he did and why the fuck!!!! COULD SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME BECAUSE I SURE AS FUCK DON'T GET IT.
And everyone here in the office is joking about how much I must be missing my guy and stuff, and next time they say that, instead of laughing kinda weirdly, I'm gonna open my mouth and say that actually, I'm single, and be done with it. Really. I've told a few guys from the plan thtat I'm single, but not from here, from this office, because they asked the second I got here if I had a boyfriend and I said yes, because back then I DID HAVE A BOYFRIEND and I have no idea how to say that I don't anymore.
FUCK.