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I have not called him.
That's, of course, easier said than done, but at least I really haven't called him. I've told myself that if he can even deign himself to ring my cell phone just one freaking time so I can call him (I'm the one with the 360 minutes a month to call him, so, yeah, I do all of the internaltion calling), then I really have no idea why the fuck we're still together.
I have talked about this with Sofia at rather lenght, and considering she is also in a long distance relationship, she totally understands and the thing I keep telling myself is, "I can't love him enough for the both of us, even as much as I might want to". That's it. Nothing else matters.
Tomorrow I'm going back up to Mipaya, so hopefully that'll make it easier not calling (considering there is no cell phone service up there and all) and then it's Thursday and lets see what happens.
If we never again talk to one another... well, I'll take that as a break up, right?
At least I'm writing. I'm happy with that much.
That's, of course, easier said than done, but at least I really haven't called him. I've told myself that if he can even deign himself to ring my cell phone just one freaking time so I can call him (I'm the one with the 360 minutes a month to call him, so, yeah, I do all of the internaltion calling), then I really have no idea why the fuck we're still together.
I have talked about this with Sofia at rather lenght, and considering she is also in a long distance relationship, she totally understands and the thing I keep telling myself is, "I can't love him enough for the both of us, even as much as I might want to". That's it. Nothing else matters.
Tomorrow I'm going back up to Mipaya, so hopefully that'll make it easier not calling (considering there is no cell phone service up there and all) and then it's Thursday and lets see what happens.
If we never again talk to one another... well, I'll take that as a break up, right?
At least I'm writing. I'm happy with that much.