[oc] Shadowboxing. Chapter nine.

[sdlucly]

Oh, god. Still here, yes. And by God I'm writing. Right now, it's a matter of my muses actually settling for one story -- ONE STORY -- and not trying to write every other bunny that comes my way. Really, my fickle ways! *giggles* Anyway, forget about that and enjoy the chapter!

Title: Shadowboxing.
Author: M. F. Luder
Pairing: Ryan/Seth.
Rating:

Comments

[sdlucly]

This story is very much unlike others, in the way that the more I wrote about it, the more I knew I had to write. To make it all worth it and believable, I had to show more. Break Ryan, in away, and break Seth just as much. Because in this case, with Seth and Ryan living together, Seth is suffering almost as much as Ryan himself. *nods*

I'm not exactly sure which paragraph you mean, but most of the times I write out of instint, and sometimes the wording can be a bit off. *shrugs* Sorry for that.

I've always liked Seth taking the first step, mostly because I feel Ryan needs it, as a reassurance, perhaps, in a way. I'm glad you liked it. Thanks for commenting. *g*

[sdlucly]

Turns out, in that paragraph you're talking about, there are one negations too many. *g* My beta didn't caught it. *giggles* Fixed already. See if now it makes sense. *g*

That's Ryan for you. He'll take what he can get, and he won't ask for more. I fear for my woobie. *g*

Thanks!

[queen_alysanne]

Wow. This was breathtaking. Gorgeous and painful and perfect. Their emotions are so real and raw and I'm so glad that you didn't ignore the fact that this is breaking Seth as much as it's breaking Ryan.

[sdlucly]

I always tend to write too much, explain too much. It seems to be my style, reason why this story, though it started a "short story" ended up being so long and explicit. *g*

No, I had to show that Seth is suffering here as much as Ryan, only that Seth doesn't think his pain is worth the time, considering everything Ryan himself is going through. Kinda like survivor's guilt, in a way, and I think it fits Seth almost perfectly. *nods*

Thanks for your comment. *nods*

[anonymous]

You're writing style is so incredibly unique ! The frantic pace and fabulous emotions that you evoke had incredible impact on me. I find myself getting really upset as this ( and all the chapters) progress.
Keep upi the great work - I really love this story -even though we know that there is no "happy ending" Thanks for sharing

[sdlucly]

Thanks so much. That's so sweet of you. *nods* I'm very proud of this story, of everything it says and shows of the boys. I love it. *g*

Thanks for your comment. *nods*

[knightdawn]

that was beautiful, more beautiful then all the other chapters, I adore it

[sdlucly]

Thanks so much. I'm very proud of this story in general. *nods* Thanks.

[ms_soma]

Brilliant. The best chapter yet I think. Lots of angst and emotion, but it wasn't over-done in the slightest. It was great to see both Seth and Ryan's separate breakdowns, their inward spiral away from each other. The smex was both a little heart-wrenching and beautiful, but I adored that last section. They have so far to go, but they seem to be making progress.

[sdlucly]

I always go that extra mile with my angst. *g*

Oh, I had to break them down. One can't go through something like this and not break down, it's just not possible, so I went ahead and did it. *nods*

I'm glad you liked it, thanks. *bounces*