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I need to write. As simple as that. I need to get off my ass and actually write. I know, in a way, that this stupid writer's block is mostly my frustration and fear in my school life (I can't flunk Structural Analysis again, I just can't. I'm so embarrassed by it, I can't even say why I can't flunk it) permeating on my writing. I'm afraid I'll have to face my parents and let them to know that I'm taking that stupid subject for the third time and if I flunk it, or if I've flunked it, that I'll get thrown out of school. I can't do that. So I'm worrying and feeling guilty and stupid (I always feel guilty when I flunk anything) and I can't sit and write even to exorcise my demons. That sucks the most, I swear.

I know there are a zillion and one thing I could write and finish. I want to, first of all, get done with Look over here. I need to do that. And then pick one WIP at a time and get done with it. It worked with Shadowboxing and with Of Paper Hearts, I'm hoping it'll work on the rest as well. *sighs*

So, I'm gonna write. Here? Hmm. Maybe, or in Word and then send it over to my email, I don't care. But I have an hour here online, at campus, so I'll use the 45 minutes I have left to actually write. *nods*

Oh, and just for the sake of it, Finals are done with on July 6th. I'm thinking, Look over here, done by the end of that month? I hope? Please? *grumbles*