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Its easier for you because you know you're getting what you want. I am terrified I'm risking it all...
But I don't really have a choice now, do I?
I just want to be loved as deeply as I love.
Just when I think a more radical change couldn't occur ...it does.
*sighs*
I'm tired.
Every time she emerges again I get a horrible tension in my chest that I can't help. No matter how calm I try to remain, I'm obviously not as cool about it as I tell myself I am. It feels like such a slap in the face everytime this happens. I come to find, again, that even when I was (at the time) so filled with hope and optimism, he was having doubts, yet again.
How are we ever supposed to make it if I keep having to start over?
But I don't really have a choice now, do I?
I just want to be loved as deeply as I love.
Just when I think a more radical change couldn't occur ...it does.
*sighs*
I'm tired.
Every time she emerges again I get a horrible tension in my chest that I can't help. No matter how calm I try to remain, I'm obviously not as cool about it as I tell myself I am. It feels like such a slap in the face everytime this happens. I come to find, again, that even when I was (at the time) so filled with hope and optimism, he was having doubts, yet again.
How are we ever supposed to make it if I keep having to start over?