It's strange how things work out.
You can spend ALL your time thinking, analyzing, and figuring, but when it comes down to it, sometimes the universe has a different plan in mind. ^_^
What's throwing me at the moment is that it was only when I let go of the traditional ideals associated with spirituality [god] that I was able to open my mind and heart enough to realize what true spirituality really is.
I think that in the months since I decided what I really wanted my life to be, I've been subconsciously [and a little consciously ^_-] rejecting all ideas concerning spirituality and forces bigger than ourselves playing a part in our lives. That's true to an extent, but I think there's more to it.
FIN [for now...] ^_-