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I am excited to go home.
The only time I actually get emotional about leaving is on the weekends when I'm with all of my friends. I honestly belive that is the only thing that I am seriously going to miss about this place. And that's not even that bad because I can still come up here on weekends whenever I want. This change is going to be a positive one.
So it seems as though a lot of bad things have been happening lately, and I'm not sure why. I believe that things happen for reasons. One of those reasons being karma, and the other for lessons. I'm searching for an answer as to what I did wrong. I'm searching for the lessons that I can draw from these happenings. I just dont know why everything has changed so much this year. I wasn't ready. Nothing was gradual. I didnt have much of a warning. When put on a large scale, my problems are minimal. However, they are still bothersome.
My computer broke a few days ago and im too frustrated to deal with Dell for a second time (considering the first time i spent 5 hours dealing with a bitch who never called me back). My phone also broke and I had to get a new one. For a few days both of my lines of communication were cut. This was especially frustrating.
I'm excited to be busy again. I feel so worthless up here, but I guess its my own fault. I could have gotten more involved, but I find it hard to get motivated. There isnt anything up here to get involved with that I'm truly passionate about. I'm excited to go home and go to school full time, work two jobs, and take dance classes. Being busy makes me feel better and gives me less time to subject myself to my mind.
I'm excited to go to Chicago for Christmas and actually spend time with my mom. I miss her so much.
I'm excited to be able to spend more time with Greg. I dont care what anyone says, but long distance relationships dont work for extended periods of time. Theres no way you can have a normal functioning relationship when you see eachother every two weeks for like 3 days at a time. Especially when your relationship is new and still forming. Its added a lot of stress and I'm looking forward to being closer to him. (For the record, he's not the reason I chose to transfer home; however that is definately a benefit and he will help to make the transition a whole lot easier.)
I lost my train of thought so i guess thats it for now.
The only time I actually get emotional about leaving is on the weekends when I'm with all of my friends. I honestly belive that is the only thing that I am seriously going to miss about this place. And that's not even that bad because I can still come up here on weekends whenever I want. This change is going to be a positive one.
So it seems as though a lot of bad things have been happening lately, and I'm not sure why. I believe that things happen for reasons. One of those reasons being karma, and the other for lessons. I'm searching for an answer as to what I did wrong. I'm searching for the lessons that I can draw from these happenings. I just dont know why everything has changed so much this year. I wasn't ready. Nothing was gradual. I didnt have much of a warning. When put on a large scale, my problems are minimal. However, they are still bothersome.
My computer broke a few days ago and im too frustrated to deal with Dell for a second time (considering the first time i spent 5 hours dealing with a bitch who never called me back). My phone also broke and I had to get a new one. For a few days both of my lines of communication were cut. This was especially frustrating.
I'm excited to be busy again. I feel so worthless up here, but I guess its my own fault. I could have gotten more involved, but I find it hard to get motivated. There isnt anything up here to get involved with that I'm truly passionate about. I'm excited to go home and go to school full time, work two jobs, and take dance classes. Being busy makes me feel better and gives me less time to subject myself to my mind.
I'm excited to go to Chicago for Christmas and actually spend time with my mom. I miss her so much.
I'm excited to be able to spend more time with Greg. I dont care what anyone says, but long distance relationships dont work for extended periods of time. Theres no way you can have a normal functioning relationship when you see eachother every two weeks for like 3 days at a time. Especially when your relationship is new and still forming. Its added a lot of stress and I'm looking forward to being closer to him. (For the record, he's not the reason I chose to transfer home; however that is definately a benefit and he will help to make the transition a whole lot easier.)
I lost my train of thought so i guess thats it for now.