time to grow up...maybe
So tonight is my last night spent in MY room. I know there will be plenty more nights where i will find myself underneath these familiar sheets, but it just wont ever feel the same.
Tomorrow is the beginning of something major. I remember when my oldest brother left for school. I remember thinking he was so old and mature...I don't feel old enough or mature enough to leave this safe place that has been my home for so long.
Sure I'm excited and I know after some time i will love the independence and the thrill of college life, but right now I can't help but feel torn about moving on with my life. I'm actually really scared.
I feel like my friendships with people from other schools will slowly fade into the past.
I'm worried that my mom won't be able to handle being alone all the time now.
I am beginning to second guess my rooming situation and my choice of major.
I wish my friends were closer.
I really wish that Zack was closer.
I know i'll be fine. I know i'll love school and growing up and finding who i am and what i am meant to be in life.
IM GOING TO HAVE SO MUCH FUN!@#&^%$$@%^&*(!!!
Since tonight seems to be the end of my childhood innocence in a somewhat cliche sort of way, I think that this might just be the last entry I have for this livejournal. Who knows, maybe i'll find comfort in another journal found somewhere in cyberspace.
love me.
Tomorrow is the beginning of something major. I remember when my oldest brother left for school. I remember thinking he was so old and mature...I don't feel old enough or mature enough to leave this safe place that has been my home for so long.
Sure I'm excited and I know after some time i will love the independence and the thrill of college life, but right now I can't help but feel torn about moving on with my life. I'm actually really scared.
I feel like my friendships with people from other schools will slowly fade into the past.
I'm worried that my mom won't be able to handle being alone all the time now.
I am beginning to second guess my rooming situation and my choice of major.
I wish my friends were closer.
I really wish that Zack was closer.
I know i'll be fine. I know i'll love school and growing up and finding who i am and what i am meant to be in life.
IM GOING TO HAVE SO MUCH FUN!@#&^%$$@%^&*(!!!
Since tonight seems to be the end of my childhood innocence in a somewhat cliche sort of way, I think that this might just be the last entry I have for this livejournal. Who knows, maybe i'll find comfort in another journal found somewhere in cyberspace.
love me.