An apology to *all*.
Recently I've finally taken note of myself, and wanted to apologize to all for my behavior in the past year or so. I've become increasingly negative, and withdrawn. I can't really pin down why, it's just something that's happening and it's been so subtle, it snuck up on me, like a predictor. No idea if it's a mild depression or environmental factors.
The year hasn't been that trying. Not like the last few that I suffered though. But I think more than most, it's a factor of my body finally starting to say 'enough' and the depression we're all going though. (I don't want to sugar coat this. it's no 'recession' for I've lived though such before and it's far different.)
My shoulders and back have been increasingly painful and it clears after I do steps to relieve the inflamation. But comes right back. Evident of the 4 month stint I had from Jan to May, then the current crop of it. After health insurance skyrocketed to the point I'm down to $40 a week net, that's when I saw myself withdrawing. I'm working on finally gain the independence I wanted all this time, but it'll take time. I won't be buying a house soon, that's for sure. Bad timing for the depression to hit us but maybe it's best in the long run for me.
Also I had to "klunk" my old car "Piece" because it was becoming a money pit. I signed it over to my mother, in order for her to get a cash for klunkers deal. (I couldn't afford a new car anyway, so might as well help someone out.) So cause of that, I'm house-bound except for times when I can borrow their car. Hopefully early next year I'll have enough to buy a bike.
But I know that people liked it when I was more outgoing, and pleasureful to be around in earlier times. So I'll start pushing to be that way again. I won't be on much for awile, until I get my shoulders to stop bothering me. I've started an exercise and strenght training that looks to be clearing it up. Once that happens, I'm sure I can come by FurryMUCK, 2nd Life (I haven't seen someone there in close to a year.) and start coming on the IMers again. We'll see.
Oh in case your wondering. Puppy is still fine. Had a bit of a problem with tape rash, that literally drove her nuts. Got the bandage changed, and a bit of anti-itch stuff that may stop the itch. So hopefully by Tuesday we can talk about taking off that bandage. Other than that ear, NOTHING has been a problem.
In the meantime. ..
The year hasn't been that trying. Not like the last few that I suffered though. But I think more than most, it's a factor of my body finally starting to say 'enough' and the depression we're all going though. (I don't want to sugar coat this. it's no 'recession' for I've lived though such before and it's far different.)
My shoulders and back have been increasingly painful and it clears after I do steps to relieve the inflamation. But comes right back. Evident of the 4 month stint I had from Jan to May, then the current crop of it. After health insurance skyrocketed to the point I'm down to $40 a week net, that's when I saw myself withdrawing. I'm working on finally gain the independence I wanted all this time, but it'll take time. I won't be buying a house soon, that's for sure. Bad timing for the depression to hit us but maybe it's best in the long run for me.
Also I had to "klunk" my old car "Piece" because it was becoming a money pit. I signed it over to my mother, in order for her to get a cash for klunkers deal. (I couldn't afford a new car anyway, so might as well help someone out.) So cause of that, I'm house-bound except for times when I can borrow their car. Hopefully early next year I'll have enough to buy a bike.
But I know that people liked it when I was more outgoing, and pleasureful to be around in earlier times. So I'll start pushing to be that way again. I won't be on much for awile, until I get my shoulders to stop bothering me. I've started an exercise and strenght training that looks to be clearing it up. Once that happens, I'm sure I can come by FurryMUCK, 2nd Life (I haven't seen someone there in close to a year.) and start coming on the IMers again. We'll see.
Oh in case your wondering. Puppy is still fine. Had a bit of a problem with tape rash, that literally drove her nuts. Got the bandage changed, and a bit of anti-itch stuff that may stop the itch. So hopefully by Tuesday we can talk about taking off that bandage. Other than that ear, NOTHING has been a problem.
In the meantime. ..