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I know I'm losing my sense of self/independence when I realize that I had the perfect opportunity to talk about shit that was bothering me, and I didn't. Just that simple fact that I was waiting for an opportunity instead of just saying what I think, when I think it, is fucked up of me. And shit, now I've been holding all this shit back and it's going to come exploding out of me at some point. Fuck. I hate realizing that I've sabotaged my own self-confidence/assertiveness like this. Maybe that's why I've been carrying around so much negativity towards other people...at work, in this house...I've noticed myself focusing negative feelings and bad thoughts on people and I don't usually do that, usually I let shit go.
I've been feeling really self-absorbed lately, and I wonder if part of being independent and self-reliant is also being really self-absorbed?
I've been feeling really self-absorbed lately, and I wonder if part of being independent and self-reliant is also being really self-absorbed?