Here I Sit
I know; it's been quite a while since I last posted in here. Honestly I've really been neglecting LJ. Of course, I have way too much going on and things just get too far out of hand; which in turn causes me to lose focus on things that I should really keep up with. Well; as usual, I'm going to post more stuff that makes no sense or seems like a waste of time, yet somehow I still continue to persist.
The people who should read this, will most likely not. The people who don't have to, will; and that's how it always works these days.
For the past year roughly I've been caught up on one person. Things were great in the beginning;as they always were, then the drama starts; along with the distance. There's no sign that the person cares anymore, then out of nowhere a friend comes to visit for a weekend and there's an explosion of emotion. After the explosion, nothing. No sign of a care in the world.
I guess it all pans out to me being a consolation for the times of being far from home. I hate being used; I hate how it always happen. I'm an example for the masses. I teach a lesson then get left in the dust. I'm yelled at by those who care about me when I say it; however history repeats itself time after time.
Being a pawn of fate takes a lot out of you.
I guess at least I do some good in my life.
The people who should read this, will most likely not. The people who don't have to, will; and that's how it always works these days.
For the past year roughly I've been caught up on one person. Things were great in the beginning;as they always were, then the drama starts; along with the distance. There's no sign that the person cares anymore, then out of nowhere a friend comes to visit for a weekend and there's an explosion of emotion. After the explosion, nothing. No sign of a care in the world.
I guess it all pans out to me being a consolation for the times of being far from home. I hate being used; I hate how it always happen. I'm an example for the masses. I teach a lesson then get left in the dust. I'm yelled at by those who care about me when I say it; however history repeats itself time after time.
Being a pawn of fate takes a lot out of you.
I guess at least I do some good in my life.