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I feel yucky today.... sick-like...
I remember being asked at various points in my life by different people, mostly teachers, "What do you see yourself doing ten years from now?"
I always hated questions like that. "What will you be doing X years from now? What will your life be like?" Anyone who knows me really well would know that I hate those questions. The future is so unpredictable. I know that if you work hard enough at something and don't give up, you'll achieve it... or die trying. But, it's unfair to ask a 16 year old where they see themselves as being in ten years. I didn't see myself with two loving men and fighting leukemia. I didn't see myself doing any of the things I'm doing now. Sure, it's important to meet some of your goals and dreams, but I don't think one should "try too hard." If you spend too much time doing what you planned for yourself, you may miss out on what God had planned for you, which is often better than the plans we made for ourselves. We always think we're doing what's best... or, we always think the plan we have for ourself is what we want. Well, there are stories all the time of people who do exactly what they planned or had dreamed and they end up miserable because they end up having everything they wanted, but nothing they needed. We always remember what we want, but we don't always remember what we need.
Honestly, I don't know where I'm going with this. I'm just typing out thoughts. A thought that started with a question that I hate... a question that I was asked ten years ago.
I remember being asked at various points in my life by different people, mostly teachers, "What do you see yourself doing ten years from now?"
I always hated questions like that. "What will you be doing X years from now? What will your life be like?" Anyone who knows me really well would know that I hate those questions. The future is so unpredictable. I know that if you work hard enough at something and don't give up, you'll achieve it... or die trying. But, it's unfair to ask a 16 year old where they see themselves as being in ten years. I didn't see myself with two loving men and fighting leukemia. I didn't see myself doing any of the things I'm doing now. Sure, it's important to meet some of your goals and dreams, but I don't think one should "try too hard." If you spend too much time doing what you planned for yourself, you may miss out on what God had planned for you, which is often better than the plans we made for ourselves. We always think we're doing what's best... or, we always think the plan we have for ourself is what we want. Well, there are stories all the time of people who do exactly what they planned or had dreamed and they end up miserable because they end up having everything they wanted, but nothing they needed. We always remember what we want, but we don't always remember what we need.
Honestly, I don't know where I'm going with this. I'm just typing out thoughts. A thought that started with a question that I hate... a question that I was asked ten years ago.