Nunc est bibendum
So, Friday the 13th. Not so bad so far. 3:18 am, still at work, otherwise.
I feel as if I have been purified. I have done and faced most of the things that I find most troubling, and I am still ok. I feel strength in knowing the presence of my two pillars. My thanks to you both.
This weekend should be fun. I have like three weeks of pent up ...doing?...to get done. Not work or chores or errands. No the fun kind of doings. My brother and I have missed each other but for like a few hours over the last ?month?? And my Misha is having her B'day party Saturday. Friday is fathers day, kinda sux my boys are down in florida both.
I worry about my brother, for I know not if I have distanced from him, or he from I or if it has just been black circumstance. I have a tendancy to distance myself when I fear emotional pain, he distances himself for fear of causing emotional pain. Either way, it is far beyond time to correct it. Damn it all, I didn't get out of the military and finally return to have the fun that we should have been having for years, just to have us drift apart.
I have need to converse with you brother. hmmm I shall post on your LJ, mayhaps that will be seen easier than this.
I feel as if I have been purified. I have done and faced most of the things that I find most troubling, and I am still ok. I feel strength in knowing the presence of my two pillars. My thanks to you both.
This weekend should be fun. I have like three weeks of pent up ...doing?...to get done. Not work or chores or errands. No the fun kind of doings. My brother and I have missed each other but for like a few hours over the last ?month?? And my Misha is having her B'day party Saturday. Friday is fathers day, kinda sux my boys are down in florida both.
I worry about my brother, for I know not if I have distanced from him, or he from I or if it has just been black circumstance. I have a tendancy to distance myself when I fear emotional pain, he distances himself for fear of causing emotional pain. Either way, it is far beyond time to correct it. Damn it all, I didn't get out of the military and finally return to have the fun that we should have been having for years, just to have us drift apart.
I have need to converse with you brother. hmmm I shall post on your LJ, mayhaps that will be seen easier than this.