Another day and yet not another dollar....

[scuttleny06]

Its funny how almost two years ago I was sitting in a chair at sears, rambling my thoughts onto a blank webpage and now, two years the wiser, here I sit back at sears trying to accomplish the same thing. Moving to flagstaff started as a simple change of scenary and yet is has now turned into its own living and breathin entity, so different and removed from the days of my past. It seems that as the seasons change so does my life. The first semester up here was full of anxiety and fear.I wanted to embrace the start of my new life but yet had to get over leaving everything I knew behind me. I faltered once or twice, the most obvious being my attempt to keep my love life centered in phoenix and but then a funny thing happened. Everything went to hell...and it was the best thing to happen to me in a longtime. I finally let go of phoenix and all of the baggage (of course there are those that remain that I still carry with me)and started to enjoy my new life up here. I realized that here,in this town full of new opportunities, I could start over and become whoever I wanted to be. With one giant leap out of my dorm, and yes I mean literally, I set forth to reinvent Joshua Mark Francis Nelson. Oddly enough it all started with work. I walked back into the sears here and got hired on the spot...thanks to my old manager being the new GM...and everything started falling into place. Suddenly I was having the time of my life with new friends, doing things that I always wanted to but never could and for the first time in a long time I was very happy and content to be single. I was having a blast but then as the school year started to close itself up, I realized all my friends would be leaving and here I would remain. Once again, and I must say to my absolute delight, life decided to throw me another good hand. Browsing around on myspace on what was otherwise a totally random day, I happened to come across the profile of beautiful blond with sparkling blue eyes. As I eyed her profile and found out her interests,it was obvious that I wanted to learn more about her. At first I was hesitant to write her, I mean, she was absolutely beautiful and while I dont think im ugly, I certainly dont think im god's gift to woman. Either way, my curiosity got the best of me so I sent her a message and signed off, figuring never to here back from her. Now, two months later, here I sit, enjoying one of the best relationships I have ever been in. I have done more in the last two months then I have with any other girl in the past 2 years( and I dont mean sexually for you dirty minds out there). Yeah we bicker a little at times, but even then I cant help but look at her and think how lucky I am. Just seeing her or hearing her voice makes my day that much better and even though I see her just about everyday, I just cant seem to get enough of her. I know that I am a high energy individual but she is able to keep up with me just fine. It doesnt seem to matter what im wearing or how I feel, I feel every bit as comfortable with her as I do with my closest friends. All I can hope for is that I dont find some way to screw this up or let her down because I can honestly say I love everything that I know about her and am not afraid to see wherever this may lead... and if you happen to read this, I just wanted to say thank you for making this a great summer and being everything that you are. Even if I could, I wouldnt change a thing about you or us and I hope you feel the same way.

So to wrap it up, dont give up on life, even when its all raining down around you. Take a chance, jump into that rainstorm head first and just enjoy the cool water on your skin in that exact moment, not worrying about the consequences and taking every moment with a smile on your face :)