life goes on long after the thrill of living is gone
ready to start over again ..i feel that time of the month ware i binge get nothing accolplished physically or mentally might be over.. tomorrow is monday time to start fresh hopefully even tho ive said that for the past i dont no how long ...
ive been wasted for 3+ weeks and i cant take it anymore i physicaly feel awfull inside i dont no what to say or do i cant even tell you how many days night ware i have just drank from wake to sleep somtimes drinking and sobering up 3-4 times a day i know i havnt really been sober at all since i got off work fri i have pretty much stayed drunk since exept for today had a few drinks wen i woke up ate a bunch of mushrooms and spent the day at the zoo .. that was sorta nice even tho im exhuasted and cant wait to pass out " before doing alll the shit i need to do im sure"
i feel bad for everyone else in my life somtimes and feel soooo helpless over it .. i havnt been returning juliannes calls in to long sometimes its to hard it just hurts to bad and i dont no what to do. it seems as tho ill be at the lake with her this weekend? as much as i look forward to it ... i dont no .. i dont no how to finish this sentence .., this are still sucking at home cant wait to get outta of here hopefully soon .. lookeed at 2 houses today ..
gotta get out soon .. im making more people then myself miserable my parents no im very unhappy and isnt helping there situation at all.. dad finally lost job today?blah blah blah to much negativity i need to havea good time and be happy way hard sometimes tho i hate whats happening to my friendship with so many people right now .. my visits to ypsi have been few and far between lately wich sucks and im not sure if i understand why.. or maybe i do?maybe its was partly my choice..i guess i never thought going my seperate ways with you would be this way.. ending on a bad negative note?
deleted susie out of my life the other day wich hurt so bad i am trying so hard to forget about that.. unsuccesfullly?i try not to think or talk about it but my god it left my chest a sloppy mess
i wanna keep writing but i want to be asleep more
ive been wasted for 3+ weeks and i cant take it anymore i physicaly feel awfull inside i dont no what to say or do i cant even tell you how many days night ware i have just drank from wake to sleep somtimes drinking and sobering up 3-4 times a day i know i havnt really been sober at all since i got off work fri i have pretty much stayed drunk since exept for today had a few drinks wen i woke up ate a bunch of mushrooms and spent the day at the zoo .. that was sorta nice even tho im exhuasted and cant wait to pass out " before doing alll the shit i need to do im sure"
i feel bad for everyone else in my life somtimes and feel soooo helpless over it .. i havnt been returning juliannes calls in to long sometimes its to hard it just hurts to bad and i dont no what to do. it seems as tho ill be at the lake with her this weekend? as much as i look forward to it ... i dont no .. i dont no how to finish this sentence .., this are still sucking at home cant wait to get outta of here hopefully soon .. lookeed at 2 houses today ..
gotta get out soon .. im making more people then myself miserable my parents no im very unhappy and isnt helping there situation at all.. dad finally lost job today?blah blah blah to much negativity i need to havea good time and be happy way hard sometimes tho i hate whats happening to my friendship with so many people right now .. my visits to ypsi have been few and far between lately wich sucks and im not sure if i understand why.. or maybe i do?maybe its was partly my choice..i guess i never thought going my seperate ways with you would be this way.. ending on a bad negative note?
deleted susie out of my life the other day wich hurt so bad i am trying so hard to forget about that.. unsuccesfullly?i try not to think or talk about it but my god it left my chest a sloppy mess
i wanna keep writing but i want to be asleep more